Moments between life and death

Time

Life moves on

Everlasting

Will I go mad?
With this waiting game?

I got all the time in the world
Too much
On my hands

All this time
I just feel wasted

Like I'm in a drunken stupor

The words I wanna say
You know the
Slurs

No no no
Not those

I'm
I'm what are you saying?

No I'm asking you
What are you saying

Huh?
(Just smile and nones, don't wanna them to kill my vibes)

I'm doing good

why is everyone looking at me?

Oh
I'm slur-ing my words
Oh shit I'm drunk
Why did I let it get to this point

I was sad
And needed to forget
For a moment

All the memories
No forget
Remember

He doesn't care
Never did
Why would he

Even my own mom said she didn't want me
Although she did change her mind
But the fact of the matter is
I still felt it in the womb
And it haunts me
Still. To this day

This feeling of never being good enough
Never living up to everyone's expectations
I need to be the good girl
But I have needs too
I want to break free

And just be me.

But this is all I know
And habits are hard to quit
People pleaser to the end
Please don't hate me

I seek approval.

I get it I do
But remember you got
All the time in the world
Just maybe take small steps
Start small and then you might see
Change

Time
I got all the time in the world

Breath
Time
Just cope

Break free
Breaking free

I am free
Time
Think of it like this

Time is what you make of it

So what are you gonna do with the time
To make me free?