Words that speak from the heart

Why now

Why am I feeling this way
It never bothered me before
Why now?
It just any other day
Same thing for many years
Why do I look around the room for you
You make the trip more fun
I notice small tiny details a little more
then I use to?
Your kindness is brighter then it was back then
Time disappears when your around
But it seems I barely know you
I'm confused yet I enjoy it
I laugh when stupid things happen
With flying air hockey pucks
You like to ride your bike to the place
We don't always talk
but we notice each other in a way
What am I feeling
It's not hate nor is it love
Why are you always on my mind
It annoying yet calming
My thoughts are racing
I have to wait again to see you
So fate intertwines by memories and confusion
May the rose bloom with curiosity

5/20/22