i don't really turn on the lights anymore.
i know this a strange thing to say, but i think it is just better if you don't see it, right?
there is a dim light that is enough to know what you are doing but not enough to know what you look like in sunlight.
if i never turn the light on, i'll never have to know, right?
so i live by the nightlight these days.
in my reflection, the shower, when i go to wash my hands and wish i didn't have to look.
it is there but it is quiet.
and it is enough.
i don't think this is lying,
i think it's protecting yourself.
i guess i am at home in the dark.
i'm not sure if that is a good thing.
