Unbreakable curse

goodbye-the loveletter

it's been a long time
verse after verse
crime after crime
it never got easier
it only got worse

i never stopped missing you
i only ever wished to be friends with you
i just never thought it would end up that way
that one day we would be pulled away

when I first write ouch
i got addicted to the feeling
almost like when we were laughing on your couch
it gave me some healing

when I would write
i would feel brave
i would be right
stuck in my own rave

i wish I could make you understand
how much you've changed me
it wasn't what I had planned
but i guess it was meant to be

the words that I would write
they would heal what you broke
the hurt would be more light
than the nicotine we used to smoke

the sound of my AC hissing
made me realized it's really quiet
you're the only thing that I'm missing
in my heart where there's a riot

i wish you would see it from my eyes
how everything you did was wrong
i wish you could feel my cries
to see how the hurt is so strong

you said all you did was being in love
you said it hurted you the most
but I'm the one who begged to be loved
by my best friend who acted like a ghost

you said it wasn't voluntary
but i never said it was
you acted like you were in the military
when we never knew the cause

even if you're barely surviving
or just regretting what you did
i will tell you that I'm thriving
with all the love you could ever forbid

you said you never wanted to hurt me
but how is that relevant
ain't no agree to disagree
cause that's just unintelligent

i wish you could own up to what you did
say it with your shaking voice
just like an oral when you were a kid
scream to the world that you had a choice

you said that you felt the connection
i wonder if you felt the ending like I did
just like a perfect projection
of all the melancholy that I hid

how can you say you felt it
when you were the first to toss it
maybe one day you'll admit
leaving a cut without a permit

you said you should've thought about us
but you don't elaborate your wrongs
you send a text thinking it takes guts
and im pretty sure you wrote a song

remember when I used to help you
we would laugh about the verse that we found
but who would've ever knew
we'll be on our own healing our own wounds

you said you don't want to get hurt again
but my words never cutted deeper than your actions
you act(ed) like a toxic man
never really care til you reach satisfaction

you said maybe we'll meet again
i want you to know that I pray we don't
i don't know if I can ever comprehend
but I'm gonna make sure I won't

you said it was your fault
but I already knew that
your blunder that you exalt
makes it hard to combat
taylor's version from the vault
all in one playlist, all compact
they resolve all your assault
that your actions did without contact

so when you said you loved me
i realize now it wasn't true
you loved being loved for free
without having to give out the same from you

you loved my energy
you loved that i molded myself to you
you loved that i listened to you with such lethargy
so you never asked me what i was going through

you liked my clothes
but also my advices
what if we were under oaths
would you have lied twice?

you needed the safe feeling I was feeding you
but one day you found another feeder
maybe it's the excitement of somebody new
or you were just tired of me being the leader

i believe we had something real
i just don't believe it was worth it
set appart how our memories would feel
i knew it was on my soul that you would spit

i always had you in my good eye
i would protect you no matter what
even if I knew it was a lie
i would pretend and close my mouth shut

im a better friend that you'll ever be
i did things you never would've done
i hope you'll someday see
that you'll get nowhere if you're on the run
cause there's not a secret key
to hide the things you have done

i made my peace with all of it
it's an endless circle of negativity
that I'm now proud to say that I quit
.your toxic way to love that needs creativity

i wish you could talk deeper about your mistakes
that way you could be on the right track
and you could develop what it takes
to become a good friend who got other's back

for the future I wish you luck
i still know karma will get you
in its grip you are stuck
but i know you'll someday grew

be kind to others
choose you friends wisely
stop calling everyone mothers
and act nothing less than kindly

think about your actions
and how they impact people
don't get scared by reactions
just know that no one's evil

don't forget your introspections
give yourself the corrections
from your soul follow the directions
of real and pure affections

we shall never talk again
that's for you to respect that
but I'm sure you'll know when
and you'll see where I'm at

remember my name when you smile
remember that I forgive you
even if you acted so hostile
i know someday you'll be proud of you

Good bye.
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