Dirty Secret

Chapter 46

The Confirmation.
Reveal your sin.

ANG TENSYON mula sa mga magulang nina Fourth at Eight papunta din sa kanila ay hindi kapani-paniwala.

Ang matitiim nilang bagang at naggalit na mga mata ay tila handang kumitil ng buhay, tumingin ako sa katabi kong si Sixteen na may pag-aalala sa mga mata.

Mabait na bata pala talaga ito, eh. Ang mga mata niya ay tila nag-aalala na baka may masaktan sa kanila.

“Just answer me, is it Bernardt?” umiigting ang panga na singhal ng tatay nina Fourth.

“Bakit ba ako't ako ang dinidiin niyo, ha?! I don't—Pwede ba?! Ayan, oh!” dinuro niya ako, “Ayan ang may kalaguyo!” she shouted.

I rolled my eyes. Nalukot ang mukha kong tumingin sa kaniya. I tilted my head as my arms are all crossed on my chest, “Pang-ilan mo na iyan, ha? Eh, sa ikaw nga daw ang umamin. Malay ko bang totoo pala ang naisip ko... Na may kalaguyo ka. Is it Mr. Bernardt Royales? That famous painter? Oh, now i know...” pinaglaruan ko ang ibabang labi gamit ang daliri ko, “He was rumored to be your former fiancé before, right?” nanalong ngumisi ako sa nanay nina Fourth na nanlaki ang mg mata.

“Yet. Yet we hd already cut everything we had!” sigaw niya sa akin na tinanguan ko, “Yeah... And so do i.” pang-aasar ko pa sa kaniya.

Umingos siya, “Look at you... Such a dirty woman!” sigaw niya sa akin  na ikinangisi ko lang, “At least... I don't do abortion, right?” i smiled at her creepy as i tilted my head on her to teased her more than earlier.

She frowned and pointed his fingers at me, “You woman!” sigaw niya na naman sa akin.

Ngumisi ako, “Kung ako saiyo, sagutin mo na muna iyang asawa mo bago ako't ako ang nababalingan mo. Okay? Kasi alam mo... Masakit ang pagdayaan ng asawa. Lalo na kung may kasama pa siyang iba.” makahulugan kong biro sa kaniya na ikinapigti ng leeg niya sa galit sa akin.

She was standing as she was glaring at me. Kung lion o dragon lang siya ay kanina niya pa ako nalapa o nabugahan ng apoy, kaya naman dapat iwas-iwas din.

Tumatawa akong ngumisi sa kaniya, “What? Alam mo masyado ka ng natatamaan sa mga sinasabi ko, eh. May tinatago ka ba talaga? Hmm?” panghuhuli ko sa kaniya at gano'n na lang ang pagtawa ko ng balingan din siya ng tingin ng asawa niya at nina Fourth at Eight.

Si Sixteen ay inosenteng nakatayo lang habang nakatingin sa lola niya at nangungunot ang noo, mukhang naiintindihan na ang mga sinasabi ngayon.

“Why... Why can't you just be contented that you're already married? Why...Why cheat? Is my grandpa... Not enough, misis?” his soft and gentle voice asked.

Nangungunot ang noo niya habang nagtatanong at bahagya din ang paggalaw ng ulo niya habang nagsasalita. Sa sinabi niya ay isa lang ang naiintindihan ko. He had bond with him already, ibig sabihin... Alam ng tatay nina Eight na nabuntis ni Eight si Talina.

What the f? Ano bang nangyayari? Is Eight suffering with his mental health?

Dinuro ng nanay nina Eight si Sixteen, “Shut up, you little mouse! You didn't know anything! Not even a peek of my sufferings! Hindi mo alam kung anong sakit ang dinanas ko dahil hindi ikaw, ako!” sigaw niya pa rito.

Lumamlam ang mga mata ni Sixteen at ang mga kislap sa mga mata niya ay tila ba nangungunbinsi sa isang bagay na gusto niyang malaman mula sa nanay ng ama niya na ngayo'y umuugat na ang leeg sa inis.

“I am not a mouse, misis. But how can you cheated on my grandfather? Yes, you suffered. Yes, nasaktan ka. Yes, nagdusa ka. At hindi ko kinikwestyon iyon. Kung bakit ka nasaktan, nagdusa o ano pa man, i will never question it because i know we all have our own pain tolerance. Pero ang tinatanong ko... Ay sapat ba talagang mag-cheat ka? Dahil lang sa nasaktan ka? Dahil lang sa nagdusa ka? What our hearts are for then? Hindi ba kaya tayo may puso para makapagpatawad, makapagmahal at makaramdam tayo?” nakakatuwang tignan ang paggalaw ng may kakapalan niyang kilay sa tuwing mangngislap sa lungkot ang mga mata ni Sixteen.

He look so convincing that even i will feel guilty, so sweetly manipulative he is.

Hindi man halata pero minamanipula niya na ang nanay ng tatay niya, haha. Loko din siya, ah. May laban din pala, unexpected nga lang. Para siyang twist, eh.

“Yes, i cheated! Happy now?! And it's all because of this man! If yuu didn't have a child with your ex girlfriend for many times... I-I will not cheat!” sigaw naman ng nanay nina Fourth na maligalig ang paggalaw ng mga mata at kilay habang nagsasalita at dinuro pa ang tatay nina Fourth.

Umingos ang tatay nina Fourth at tumingin sa asawa niya, “You know why, you knew it pretty well why. It's because you can't be pregnant and we had agreed with it, aren't us?! Ikaw pa nga ang nag-suhesyon no'n!” sagot naman niya dito habang bahagya ang paggalaw ng dibdib.

Mataray akong tumingin sa gilid ko, what the f naman pala sila, eh.

“Oo! P-Pero—” magdadahilan pa sana ang nanay nina Fourth nang putulin ni Eight lahat ng sasabihin niya.

“Years ago, i saw you... When i was still a child. Making out with him and when i try to reach it out with dad... What did you do, woman? You made the child me think i was just hallucinating things! And when i reached the age of fourteen! I saw you! I SAW YOU KILLING MY OWN YOUNGER SISTER! I TRIED TO STOP YOU! BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?! YOU MADE ME LOOK LIKE A PSYCHO IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! YOU MADE IT LOOK LIKE IT WAS ME WHO DID IT! YOU MADE ME DEVELOP THIS SICKNESS IN MY HEAD!” nakakatakot si Eight, his voice had revealed all of his anger and pain yet his eyes are all cold.

His emotions are plain nothing, as if he wasn't in pain. His eyes are scary cold and it wasn't even having any sparks. It was as if there's a dark venom being able to embrace all of his inner. It was as if there's a lot of darkened sticky venom slowly pulling him in and hiding his emotions.

Everything in this room went black. The aura had darkened. Ang liwanag ng araw ay mayroong sinag rito sa loob ngunit nangingibabaw pa rin ang kakaibang mabigat na awra na napakadilim sa loob.

Walang hindi makakaramdam ng tensyon at bigat na ito. At kasalukuyan itong namamayagpag sa loob.

Wala ni isang ugat ni Eight ang makikita, tila kalmadong kalmado pa rin siya.

Tinuro niya ang puso niya, “YOU. MADE. ME. THIS. NUMB. YOU. MADE. ME. LIVE. LIKE. THIS. GINAWA MO AKONG ROBOT! NA HINDI NAKAKARAMDAM! NA WALANG PAKIELAM SA PALIGID! GINAWA MO AKONG HIBANG!” mabilis at mabigat ang paggalaw ng dibdib ni Eight at paunti-unti ay nagkaroon ng kakaibang liwanag ang mga mata niya.

Tila ba unti-unti ay nakaka-alis si Eight mula sa pagkakakadena mula sa kakaibang kadiliman sa pinakalooban niya.

“NAPAKA-HAYUP MO... Y-YOU PAID SOMEONE... A GROUP OF MEN TO RAPE MY FIVE YEARS OLD YOUNGER SISTER... FIFTEEN. YOU,” he gulped—his sharo adam's apple moved up and down, “AND AFTER THAT... JUST BECAUSE YOU WERE JEALOUS OF HOW PRETTY SHE HAD BECAME! YOU DROWNED HER... YOU PULLED HER HAIR KANY TIMES, PUNCH HER.. A-AND... Y-YOU HIT HER HEAD ON THE TILES MULTIPLE TIMES...!” gumalaw ang mga mata niya ng napakaligalig ngunit ang kakaibang pag-kintab ay unti-unti ring sumisilay.

His eye move so beautiful and slow as his eyebrows went up and down.

Slowly, his eyes watered like a human... Like he had frightened the demons trying to resurfaced inside him.

And slowly too, his tears started falling just as the door opened and Talina came in. Their eyes meet each other and i saw how her eyes widened and blink and slowly, she gulped and a proud smile formed on her lips as she can't believe what she was saying—that's how her eyes sparks for me.

I look at Sixteen who was also looking amused, he look so cute, by the way. What a younger brother, he seemed a nephew for me.

Talina slowly walked and cupped Eight's face, “Welcome back... Eight.”

An tears successfully escaped from his eyes and my heart bloomed at the same time. Being this happy that someone had finally able to escaped and defeat his demon are just... So comfortable to looked on. They had always made me feel so proud.

Gano'n na lang din ang puno ng pagkahangang ngumiti si Fourth at ang ama naman nila ay nanlalaki ang mga mata sa naririnig niya.

Tila ba hindi niya alam na may gano'n na nangyari, "T-Those 8 years that i wasn't here... This...” his eyes watered amd slowly a tears falled from his eyes.

And he looked at his wife with anger and too many negative emotions, “You...”