[ONGOING] Assassin's Creed Oneshots (REQUESTS OPEN - SMUT INCLUDED)

another random ass rant

(yes i started this off with a meme its gonna get dark so have that Edward meme for comfort)

sorry ab this just need to vent

like i fell for this girl

she seemed nice but no she was toxic and she had a crush on like 3 other people

and in the beginning i was so like euphoric and crushing on her was my way of keeping the suicidal thoughts out

but later

i'd fucking sob myself to sleep knowing she didnt feel the same and the suicidal thoughts came back

like i felt so alone and im so glad for my best friend bc she helped out

in the beginning she was like 'oh we'll help you get with [former crush's name]' but later she was like 'drop [former crush's name] and raise your standards'

like bro

I HAD TO WATCH THIS BITCH FAWN OVER SOME GUY

AND I HAD TO FAKE BEING ABLE TO STOMACH IT

I SWEAR IM THE STUPIDEST FUCK EVER LIKE

MY FRIENDS HELPED IN A WAY I CANT REPAY THEM FOR

LIKE MY BESTIE

SHE IS SO COMFORTING LIKE

ANYWAY

SO

i lose feelings

she stops talking to me

i ask why and she doesnt tell me

im still in shock and that was like June bro

my best friend says it was her manipulating me and i realized i had been looking at the girl i had a crush on through very rose colored glasses

OH THATS NOT EVEN THE WORST PART

I ACTUALLY LIKE STARTED SHING WHILE I HAD A CRUSH ON THE GIRL AND LIKE I STILL HAVE SCARS AND IT REMINDS ME OF HER WHEN I SEE THEM AND I FALL DOWN THIS RABBIT HOLE OF RELAPSE

AND THEN I TRY TO TELL MY DAD AB IT AND THE GUY GUILT TRIPS ME BC HE DOESNT KNOW EVERYTHING AND LIKE HES NORMALLY CHILL

LIKE MAN DONT GUILT TRIP YOUR TRAUMATIZED KID AND MAKE THEM FEEL WORSE BC I FELT SO MUCH WORSE AND I COULDNT LIKE TAKE IT

ANYTIME I RELAPSE ITS USUALLY PARTIALLY BC OF THE GIRL I HAD CRUSHED ON

sorry ab the vent needed to get it off my chest bc its too much to handle and shit

a little message to people going through any form of this (whether it be SH or the crushing thing i went through): Listen. To. Your. Friends. I didn't and I ended up here, not doing well. And for the SH, I'd say to think of something or make something based off a thing you like (for example I have like those knotted friendship bracelets on my right arm-arm with the most scars-that are themed after characters i like. Edward Kenway, Gambit, Shay, etc. and yeah it may seem stupid but it helps). Also listen to comfort music (mine is like the Black Flag soundtrack album, some random songs, etc-)

some cursed memes to lighten the mood

(AND THIS EDWARD FANART I FOUND I LOVE IT SM)

anyway i'm gonna attemp to do writing now lmao bye

-Ash :)