Duplicate {Severus Snape}

Chapter Thirty-Two: The End of an Era

"While my eyes hurt to watch you leave, I suppose my memories will blur the rest," I said softly,  "Fuck! Why couldnt you have put your wand down,"

My head fell down, the tears now flooding my face with no resolve. I slammed the the front of casket down, signaling the people behind me to lower him. I stood were I was until the last spot of dirt was put on him. I stood there past that so I knew that he wasnt going to reach out of the dirt and come back.

I waited.

I turned back to Sirius waiting in a seat behind me. Severus in the back talking to Godfather, his eyes looked to me,  he stood taking my hand in his looking to me with no words.

"I know you have said that you wish not to talk about it," he started.

I knew where he was going. He was talking about us. Hogwarts. Our parents. Everything I refused to talk about it now. He was here, and I was okay with that. I didnt need an apology anymore.

"Please," I said but he stopped me.

"As your brother, I can not express that I see you now as someone I dont recognize. Someone the years took with harshness. For a decision that you did not make,"

"I would do it again to have you here with me. Our paths were meant to be this way, to part, and then reunite. I have no intention of fighting with you when I could continue to love you for the rest of our days. Im choosing to love you, my brother. Forgive yourself," I said, my hand holding his squeezing it with force.

Sirius and I had not seen eachother since that day at Aidens house. I was so struck with the events that I didnt want to leave my chambers nor my bed. All that I saw was Severus. I knew this conversation was one that was bound to happen, but also one I knew would end with our relationship healed.

Regulus would want me to forgive him, and I want to as well. For all of us. What we never had, Sirius and I will.

"I'll see you soon. We will check on eachother. Owls. In person. Anything. I will never tire of seeing you," he said to which I nodded with a small chuckle leaving mouth.

"Nor will I," I said, one kiss on the cheek and I left his hand go to find Severus so we could get out of this place.

He looked to me, his calloused hand stroking my cheek before planting a soft kiss. I wrapped my arm around his following his, following him as he led me out of the grounds.

I couldnt help but look behind me just to make sure, but all I could see was the dirt that was mounted on him. That would do, and hopefully stay that way for the rest of my life.

The walk from the gates to our chambers was quiet. I knew he felt like he was walking on eggshells with me, I could feel the stress in his body just with my touch. In a way I couldnt help but also think it was fear. I wanted nothing but to take it away, but in order for that, we would need to talk about something neither of us want to start.

I let him go heading straight into our room. I stopped when I went to close the doors, he sat on our couch, a drink in his hand, he sighed as if he knew that was going to happen. I needed to start it.

I went over to him, his eyes startled to see me back out. I picked up my dress, putting my leg around him, I sat down making myself comfortable before looking to him. His eyes looked to me in wonder, he didnt know what to do, or what I wanted.

"I know your stressed," I said, "I know its tough right now, I know I make it tough, but I dont do it intentionally. Im trying,"

His body chuckled to my words, he nodded agreeing with me before putting down his drink. His hands grabbed my ass pulling me up further. I forgot how much I loved his hands especially when they were on me.