What is it paradise without Newt

Who heard my confession?

(Thomas's point of view)

After Brenda knew she wasn't getting any more out of me she left me alone and after she left I headed straight for the memorial.
It took me five minutes to get there when I'm walking so I decided to run .
When I got to the part of the jungle with thicker trees and all of the tomb stones my mission was the find the correct one . There was so many it took almost fifteen minutes to find the one I was looking for but finally I did. I took a seat on the floor in front of a great big boulder that we used as the tomb stones and engraved in it said

Chuck
Great friend
Our little brother
Will be remembered by all.

I haven't visited the others as much as I did Chucks , He was my first friend I made when I came out of the box , He was always there to cheer every Glader up when they were feeling down . Well everyone except Gally he is always miserable.
"Chuck I wish you were here" I said with a lump in my throat .
"I did something really bad ... Just like Gally did to you . I need help Chuck please help me" but as I spoke the lump grew bigger and I exploded in to tears . "Chuck I have done something and I wish I hadent . He is never coming back" okay I need to breath now "Chuck I-I-I killed a friend . " I couldn't hold back to tears.
"He had the flare and he was the only one who wasn't immune like us . He was your friend to . He was everyone's friend and I killed him." I started rocking back and fourth again "Chuck it was Newt ... I killed Newt . He was a Crank and I saw him in the street and I stopped the van. I shouldn't of stopped the van but I did because I saw Newt and he saw me and knew I was a friend of his so he backed away ... I got closer and the next thing I know he is on top of me screaming at me telling me why he has that limp."
I know Chuck can't hear me but maybe he can maybe he was watching down on us . But it helped to say it out loud .
" I was scared about what he was going to do so I reached for my gun but he saw... He saw and pulled it to his head , right between the eyes but I was still holding it . He starts saying about the note he gave me . Chuck he wanted me to kill him before he was past the gone , but I failed." Memory's of Newt came flooding back to me as I spoke . " then h- h- he starts shouting at me KILL ME ,KILL ME ! Non stop and each time it got louder until he was screaming KILL ME!!!!!!!! Before I kill you !!!! But all I said was I can't that is all I said because he wouldn't listen when I told him we could lock him and come with us and then he said do it before I become one of them ... KILL Me ! . And then Newts eyes cleared as if had gained one last trembling gasp of sanity,and his voice softened.And he said Please ,Tommy.Please and with his heart falling into black abyss , I pulled the trigger .I closed my eyes because I didn't want to see my best friend die ,but I heard the impact of the bullet on flesh and bone and felt Newts body jerk and fall on to the street. Then I ran and never told anyone but you Chuck"

I never knew someone could produce so many tears but I found then that you could .After I told Chuck what happened I stood up to leave and he was stood there next to the tree with even more tears than me . "Minho i-" he looked down at the floor and back at me . "You killed Newt !!!! You !!!! My best friend !!!!! Killed our best friend !!!!! And the only person you tell is a rock !!!!!!! HOW COULD YOU THOMAS !!!!!!!"