Heikazuscara -the dead maid-

park

Heizous Pov:

it was weird that scara was stuttering because i asked if we wanted to go to the beach, maybe he didn't like it there or it was just something else

"scara, why don't you wanna go, did something happen when you were at the beach one time or why?" i asked

"i um no, nothing happened its just i don't like it there" he responded to me

"oh ok thats fine, but what are we gonna do now i don't wanna go without you"
i said

"we could go on a walk for now and enjoy the nature" kazuha suggested

"i think its great what do you think scara~"

"uhm maybe, its better than the beach" scara said back

"ok great lets but on something lighter"
i said because it was really hot outside

"im ok in my clothes" scara again said in a cold voice

"but its really hot outside and your wearing long sleeves and jeans"
kazuha said questioning him

"i know and i don't care" he said back

"well lets go outside" i said optimistic

we walked out of my mansion and went to my privat park that didn't have any trash on the floor or any other stuff that made a regular park dirty what sinners could do that to a park i don't understand

it was beautiful but i noticed that scara was sweating because it was hot

"scara take that hoddie of its to hot for that" i asked him to do but he again said a cold no

"scara is there a reason why you don't want to take it of" kazuha asked him

"no" scara said

when scara walked infont of me and kazuha and couldn't hear our conversation i asked kazuha if we should be worried about him and he nodded

"what should we do" i asked kazuha

"i think hes hiding something, and it has something do to with his hoddie" he said

"i hope its not what i think it is"

"what do you think it could be" he asked confused

"what if he hurt himself i really hope thats not the reason" i said it was just an assumption but the possibility is still there i mean look at him that emo boy

"oh hopefully not, i mean look at him do you really think he would do something like that" kazu said

yeah i think so

"lets just enjoy our walk and ask him when we are back at my home"

"sure"

we had a really nice and cute walk through the park, there were swings and i pushed kazuha and scara

we really had a nice time there, just like little kids

after sometime we all went home and i looked at kazuha and he nodded so we went to scara

Scaras Pov:

i managed to not go to the beach but instead we all went to the park, it was quite hot but i couldn't say that because they would say "just take off your hoddie" and i couldn't risk them finding out thats way to risky and its been some months since i last had a relapse

after sometime we went home and i went to the bathroom to change the bandages

as i went out they were both sitting on the couch and wanted me also to sit with them

"what do you guys want" i said in a cold voice what if they knew something was up

"why didn't you take off your hoddie it was quite hot outside" kazuha asked

i was shocked but kept my face

"allergies" was my answer

"oh, why didn't you tell us" heizou asked

"i just told you"

"oh well then there is nothing to worry about" kazuha said

"what were you guys thinking"
i asked

"that you might have hurt yourself"
kazuha said with a smile well damn

"but now we know thats not the matter"
heizou also said

"well im going to my home bye"
i said while i pack some of my clothes

"bye~"

"see you soon"

so i went home it was a quite long walk and it hurt but whatever im not some old hag or something

when i got home i put on some short shorts and a crop top since i was at home and no one could see me

i layed in bed and just looked at the ceiling relaxing being alone i like it

what if they don't care what if they use me well they couldn't since i can't do anything good and always fail like the mistake i am

i should kill myself, it would be easier for all the people that know me and it's good for me i won't have to struggle anymore

so after some thinking i searched in my meds for some sleeping pills i got when i was younger i had some trouble sleeping

so i took all of them and counted 26

i mean that would be enough right

i grabbed a bottle of water and started swallowing i already had 10, 16 to go

i soon had all 26 in me and i started having extreme headaches, and feeling dizzy

i started to black out

bye bye world that would be my last thoughts kinda silly but whatever i won't be here anyway