Heikazuscara -the dead maid-

What if scara disappeared...

It was a nice night they were all sleeping except Scaramouche he was thinking about his live how much he fucked up in everything, his relationship with heizou and kazuha yes even if he enjoyed it he was still thinking that they were better of without him

Scaras Pov:

what if i relapsed right here in heizous mansion i mean they don't have to find out and it would make me feel better maybe not physically but mentally

so i looked around to see if they were asleep, and they were sleeping i got me my phone and slowly went to the bathroom

i locked the door and looked at myself and just cursed myself out, why can't i be pretty like heizou or kazuha they look like goddesses

i started crying but stayed silent they can't know

i took my phone and took the phonecase out and there fell out a small blade that i had bought some days earlier

so i sat down on the floor of the bathroom and started cuting maybe not the best decision but it helps

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and after some time i was full of blood it was dripping from my right arm it was about 20 cuts some were deep and some just on the top layer of the skin

and there was also blood on my thighs on both were 25 cuts so i just had done about 70 cuts, i was a mistake why did i do this i don't deserve anyone i should just leave

after i cleaned everything up i bandaged my arm and thighs making sure there were no signs of me ever doing something like this

i put the blade in my phonecase and went to grab my stuff but then i thought about there faces when i would not be there so i decided to stay

i put everything to the places they were and went to sleep but heizou was waiting for me

No ones Pov:

after scara came back to the bedroom heizou was already awake it scared scara

"where were you" heizou asked

"why are you awake? and i was in the bathroom" scara answered

"i just woke up since you weren't there and i was using you as a teddy bear"

"oh"

"anyway come back to bed i wanna sleep" heizou said

to wich scara went to the bed and again fell asleep

scara had a nightmare about his past and woke up sweating

Heizous Pov:

Scara disappeared when i was sleeping so i waited for him to come back when he came back he fell asleep but then woke up sweating

"scara whats wrong" i asked kinda panicking

"scara babe, what happend?" Kazuha asked but way more calmly than me

"no- nothing nothing has happend it was just a nightmare, don't worry" scara said trying to calm down

after he calmed down me and kazuha asked if he wanted to talk about it but he shock his head

so i went down to the kitchen and made breakfast

"Breakfast is ready" i said

they both came down and now i noticed that scara was wearing a hoddie and long pants to sleep wich he didn't usually

"scara wasn't that to hot to sleep in" i asked but he just shock his head

so i guess that means no

we all ate and then put on our regular clothes

"you both wanna go to my private beach"i asked since it was middle summer

"sure what about you scara?" kazuha asked scara

"no"scara said in his cold voice but you could see that he was slightly panicing

"why not" i asked

"i-i just don't wanna g-go" he said stuttering i guess failing to speak normally

"scaramouche whats wrong"

he was shocked i used his whole name but didn't say anything

"hey calm down if you don't want to go its ok" kazuha said to scara giving me a glare that literally said 'shut the fuck up or im gonna kill you'

i just nodded and went to the beach alone with kazuha