Dream journal - Entry 1

Dream journal entry 1 - My selfish ways.

ok well i cant precisely remember where it started but i was on a school trip and we were going to a rainforest retreat for a daytrip and for whatever reason the teacher that ive had romantic feelings toward for ages who is currently on long service leave was there and this completely random old lady who was deformed (meaning she had a gigantic head and a weirdly shaped face) but in the dream no one raised an eyebrow or even acknowledged that she was deformed which is the way i wish society was.

When we arrived time passed quickly and it was late afternoon, i got a call from my mother and when i answered i just heard a muffled "help" and i replied with "are you alright" and she answered "its happened" i said "whats happened??" (take note that something ever happening to her is my worst fear.) and she said she had accidentally runover one of our neighbours kids which reminded me of my half sisters little sister who was runover by her stepdad when she was 4 and passed away as a result. As i was on the phone the teacher i have a crush on (We'll call her Jess for the purpose of the story) asked if i wanted to stay an extra night there with her in a luxury cabin that belonged to a friend of hers as i listened i could hear my mother on the phone muffle "no i need you to come home, i need you" her voice was very weak and scared and i extremely selfishly and this makes me feel physically ill now, hung up the phone and agreed to stay another night.

Later on once it was getting to the late afternoon the old deformed lady asked if i wanted to go worm hunting, i asked what it was and she replied with you'll see and she handed me a wood weaved basket and a famers hat. She then took my hand and we jumped through the leaves which lead to an abandoned house underneath the earth but this house extended into never ending rooms and in each one the floor was lined with millions of worms and we swooped them up into our baskets and (we could fly but only just above the floor no higher) then would fly quickly from room to room. As we got deeper into the house the rooms and the artwork in them started to become more gore like, there were things i cant remember written in blood and skeletons everywhere and then eventually there were zombies, in one room all the furniture trapped us and we couldn't move and there were white zombies coming towards us i was petrified but the old lady just laughed as if nothing was wrong, all she cared about was getting the worms. Eventually we escaped just before the white zombies got us, as we moved from room to room i started to realise that all the white zombies were horrible creatures and that they wanted to kill us whilst all the black ones were lovely and offered us love and compassion which i personally think has something to do with for whatever reason when i see a group of african people i feel threatened and i hate that because i know they are just people but its my subconcious. Once we got back up to earth the old lady and Jess told me that i could go chill in the city with my old city kid friends for a while while they set something up. So i headed there but ended up in my friend Josh's room with a bunch of my stoner friends and Eliza (my little sister) was there for whatever reason but was wearing my clothes so i chilled there for a while and had a few hits off Josh's bong and than realised there was a Mcdonalds built into his room?? i wanted to get an apple pie cause thats the only thing i eat from there and they are so good so i ordered one but as soon as it touched my hands I was whisked away into another world once again (the apple pie was a porthole) This world was a real live pokemon game which is my favourite video game where you have little monsters known as pokemon and battle them against eachother but all the pokemon had been replaced with adventure time characters which is my favourite kids cartoon and my favourite character from the show is named Treetrunks who is known for making apple pies and my teleporter into that world was an apple pie. so then my pokemon were given to me and i had jake, tree trunks and a character i didnt recognize, i assumed it would be fake and all in good fun especially when i realised the other pokemon trainers were my friends from the city or people that i knew of but had never met in real life but it was all too real. they were trying to kill eachother i ended up being in the last three trainers and idk if you know but pokemon evolve into bigger stronger pokemon as they fight but mine didnt. i was getting dozens of spears thrown at me and all my pokemon were dead and this guy Laken who i know through a bunch of people thought he had won and was screaming victory is mine etc when suddenly the bad character from adventure time the ice king swooped in from nowhere and covered everyone in ice and froze them and took the first prize. Then i was suddenly watching my mum but i wasn't actually there i was just watching from above in a birds perspective she was taking all these calls about the incident with the neighbour and she looked so scared and withered and for some reason she was at my old bustop where i would wait to get to my old school. and she was calling my phone but i wasnt answering and saying "theyre blaming me i dont know what to do" and then the lyrics of la dispute once of my favourite bands, she started screaming them and suddenly that was all i could hear and the lyrics are "can i still get into heaven if i kill myself can i still get into heaven if i kill myself can i ever be forgiven cause i killed that kid it was an accident i swear it wasnt meant for him" and it kept repeating and repeating and getting louder and louder and was literally unbearable and i was freaking out and grabbing at the knifes so i could make it stop by killing myself and than i woke up banging my head against the wall