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Its my fault.. I'm sorry... - {Krii7y}

TW,
suicide attempt, near character death.

Flashback~

"As I was walking to the cliffs edge my life started to flash before my eyes, it was painful, first it was the earliest memory I have of my younger self then it kept changing through the years till it got to him."

"The boy who I fell for. The boy who made me feel things I never thought I'd see till he showed me the light but that light suddenly died when I saw what he had done."

End of flashback~

I walked in on him with another guy.. my gasp broke their kiss and we locked eyes, I saw regret, guilt and other shit in those eyes I used to get lost in... His face was unreadable but I guess mine showed the pure shock, horror and heartbreak at the fact he'd just cheated on me.

"Baby I can expla-" John tried but I had stopped him mid sentence, "Save it. I- I don't need your explanation John! We.. we're done..." I sniffled out between sobs and before John could try say anything else, I turned my back on him and now I was running towards the front door grabbing my keys on the way, I was out the house and in my car, heading towards the place I felt safe the most.. the place he had taken me.

Johns POV~

I managed to push the guy off me and heard him starting to bitch about Jaren ruining the mood like that and I saw red and unleashed a whole essay of words I never thought I'd hear myself dare say to another human and with that I left the guy there in utter shock.

I fucked up.. I shouldn't have gotten high..

Nearly falling down the stairs I flung open the front door to see his car gone and thankfully he left my keys but I had to think of where the fuck he went to! I tried thinking of where he could've gone till I thought of the place I took him to, "fuck the cliff!" I said to myself now thinking the absolute worst. I grabbed my keys and got into the car, I sped down the road to our spot, "please don't do anything stupid.." I said to myself once again trying to get my shit in order but it wasn't working..

Jarens POV~

I was slowly walking up to the cliffs edge, everything flashing before my eyes as I was still pondering wether or I really wanted to do this. So many people will be hurt, friends will regret not getting in touch sooner, my mind kept changing and then it fell to John.

The fucker I fell hard for, my best friend who has been there for me in my darkest times.. I pushed everything back as I was now on the edge, looking down seeing the water hit the rocks and the stoney beach below. Salty tears pricked at my eyes begging to be released by simply blinking, I was about to step off when I heard a car come to a screeching stop, a door being slammed and then my name being called from behind, I turn to see him, John.

"What are doing here John.." my voice breaking when I said his name as tears rolled down my face, "I'm sorry.. please hear me out. I never wanted to do anything with that guy he forced himself on to me..! We were high and shit.." John started but trailed off looking at me with pain in his eyes, those beautiful grey-blue eyes.. regretting what he let happen but, I didn't know the whole story, John tried to get me away from the edge but he couldn't and now his soulmate.. his anchor keeping him to this world is on a cliff with John frozen in place.

"Goodbye John"

Were the last broken words I let leave my trembling mouth, I breathed them out, pain lacing every letter, a broken smile painted painfully across my face, as John watched wide eyed as I fell from the cliffs edge into the water below.