Thomas Jack Gibson-Severide

Messed up

Earlier that day
Kelly pov
The call we had today went sideways. The call was a family that has been shot and there house was burned down. It was the worst call I had ever been on. I was zoned out at my desk when my phone started ringing. South Chicago Middle School. For fuck sake. Just what I need
Kelly: hello?
Mr Richards: good morning this is mr Richards Thomas' principal
Kelly: I remember. What has he done?
Mr Richards: it started off in science. He was just watching traffic out the window not paying attention. Not following instructions when given. He decided to make paper planes out of his worksheets and threw them around the room. He then threw a pen at Mr Meads head. Apparently he was very fidgety and not focused in the lesson. He swore at the teacher and another student. So was sent to me. He didn't come to me I caught him walking out of school. I called him back but he told me to F off. This behaviour is unacceptable. He is suspended for 2 weeks and upon return he's expected to write a letter of apology to mr mead. I also want to set up a meeting for a behaviour plan
Kelly: I'm very sorry for his behaviour. I assure you that he'll have a suitable punishment at home.
Mr Richards: thanks for your cooperation

Present time
I messed up. I messed up badly. After he ran off I called out to shay
Shay: what's up?
Kelly: can you go and check on Thomas? I snapped at him and he got scared of me. I fucked up shay
Shay: I'll go find him. He's probably gone home
Kelly: thanks shay.

A few hours later it was time to pick up Kiara. I picked her up and we went home. Kiara ran to shay and gave her a hug
Kiara: where Tommy?
Shay: he's sleeping
Kelly: right munchkin take your shoes off and you can go do some coloring
Kiara: okay
She ran out the room
Kelly: how is he?
Shay: pissed. He trashed up his room and broke down. He said he messes everything up and all he does is cause trouble. He thinks you hate him.
He broke down so I sent him to your room to sleep
Kelly: I really don't know how to fix this Shay.
Shay: just be honest with him and let him explain what happened

I went to my room and Thomas was still asleep. I shook him awake
Thomas: go away
Kelly: I just want to talk to you
Thomas: yeah well I don't want to talk to you
Kelly: come on Thomas please. I'm sorry about earlier okay. I shouldn't have lost it at you.
Thomas: I'm sick of people saying sorry. I've heard it so many time and it means nothing. You know how many time mom said sorry and still hurt me.
Kelly: I really am sorry Thomas. I had a bad shift but I shouldn't have taken it out on you.
Thomas: I really thought you were gonna hit me today. The look you gave me was the same Michael would have before he hit me
Hearing that broke my heart. I sat beside him and pulled him into a side hug
Kelly: listen bud I will never ever hurt you. I might get pissed at you but I would never hurt you.
Thomas: but you did hurt me. You said 'why can't you be normal'. You think I like being like this. I hate it. I wish I was normal. That way I wouldn't be seen as the freak with anger problems
Kelly: I didn't mean what I said. I was just frustrated and angry with the call today and myself. I took it out on you and that wasn't fair. You might not believe me but I wouldn't change you for the world. You can be a handful sometimes but that's just how it is. You only see the bad things about your ADHD but there's a lot of good things too.
Thomas: like what?
Kelly: your not scared to try new things. No day is the same with you. You do whatever to make people laugh. Your kind. Protective. There's all these things that make you you. I'm sorry
We sat in silence
Kelly: you want to tell me what happened today?
Thomas: in the lesson I was watching the cars out the window. Then I was walking around then sat next to Diego and started talking. I made paper planes and threw them around. I was fidgeting with my pen and it flew out my hand and hit Mr Mead. I didn't mean for it to hit him. I swore at some kid in my class for snitching and then at the teacher. That's when I walked out. As I was walking the principal called me and I told him to fuck off.
Kelly: I'm gonna ask you something and you have to be honest with me
Thomas: okay
Kelly: did you take your meds this morning?
Thomas: yeah?
Kelly: Thomas
Thomas: fine no I spat it out
Kelly: come on kid. It helps you. It calms you down
Thomas: i know but I hate it. It makes me feel empty and emotionless. I feel like a robot. I know it helps but I hate the way it makes me feel.
Kelly: we'll see if we can get them changed but until then you have to promise to take them
Thomas: fine.
Kelly: I need to ask you something
Thomas: am I in trouble?
Kelly: No no it's about your dad
Thomas: okay?
Kelly: he wants to get to know you and be in your life. What do you think?
Thomas: I think it would be nice
Kelly: so you want to get to know him?
Thomas: yeah
Kelly: okay we can ring him either tomorrow or Friday
Thomas: did I get suspended?
Kelly: 2 weeks
Thomas: oh okay
I went to walk out the room
Thomas: Uncle kelly?
Kelly: what's up
Thomas: what's my dad like?
Kelly: well he's a firefighter in Seattle. He's a nice guy. He's the only guy out of the ones your mom dated that I actually got along with. I was hoping they'd stay together. Your a lot like him.
Thomas: how?
Kelly: your respectful. Protective. Caring
Thomas: what if he decides that I'm not worth getting to know?
Kelly: then his loss. He'll be an idiot not to. Your a good kid why wouldn't he want to know you
Thomas: okay I'll do it