guess who's back at square 1?
me.
more visits with him are like continually reaping fruit
from a diseased tree.
and eating it
all day.
then wondering why you can't stop vomiting.
it's because you were just ingesting literal poison.
imagine that.
poison makes ya vomit.
who would've guessed.
he wants to move away
he told me so
he told me how close he came to doing it
without saying anything
and cutting us off forever.
oh the luxury he has
to decide to never want to see us again.
to decide to not want us.
imagine having the freedom to only do what's best for you.
and nobody else.
isn't there a word for someone like that?
someone completely void of empathy?
oh yeah.
"psychotic".
i got glared at today
because i had chores to do
that my sister let slip through the cracks
because i clean up everyone's messes
it's what i do.
i got yelled at today
for helping a lost dog find it's way home
after it was almost hit by a car
stay safe clifford
you're a good boy and i don't want you to get lost again.
i got gaslit and manipulated today
the conversations i had three times over never happened.
it didn't happen the way i saw it.
i
must
be
crazy.
no.
i am only disrespectful.
thats it.
i got harshly judged today
because i fell short of his
expectations
i didn't make it about him.
apparently
" i t s n e v e r a b o u t h i m . "
and that's my fault.
o b v i o u s l y ,
it's
always
* m y *
fault.
and im sorry
okay?
i didn't mean to.
sometimes being a spectator sucks.
you accidentally meddle with things
and you break them.
sometimes so badly that they can't be fixed.
like a family for example.
or stability.
or self-esteem.
but what do i know?
i'm just another face in a sea of nobodies.
so why should i care anymore?
i can't find a reason why.
oh well
we're gonna see what señorita perfecta is gonna do next.
is she with us?
or is she with them?
we'll see what happens
that's what spectators do after all
we watch.
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My mediocre poetry
PoetryI'm no poet, but I write sometimes so here's that. I'm sorry for anyone who reads this crap.