Between us [GL'S SERIES #2]

CHAPTER 48- STRUGGLES

"what the fuck.." she cursed under her breathe but i clearly heard it, she looks so shock and mad while looking at me now

i didn't expect it, as much as i wanted to go to the event to watch how sapphire's effort goes but i chose not to, i don't want to risk seeing my sister because i know this would eventually happened and here it's happening already

"s-she looks like you.." ez whispered beside me, eli look at him at nilipat ang tingin sakin

"ez, can you leave us alone first? go back to our room i'll explain later" i told him without looking at him

"o-okay" he said and left i'm glad he didn't asked further question i know he's confused on what's going on

"you're here" el started habang masamang nakatingin sakin, hatred is so evident on her voice

"i am elara, h-how are you?" my voice crack in nervousness

"fuck you," she clenched her jaw and stepped forward infront of me "when are you planning to show yourself huh?" she asks sarcastically

"i'm not planning to" i plainly said

"oh really? you are so fucking selfish!" she push my arms kaya napayuko ako, i couldn't look at her

"eli stop! let's go back there please calm down--"

"you know she's here?" i look at sapphire na andito rin pala, i breathed heavily

"she's the backup pilot in our private plane i didn't know our pilot connected to her"  she said honestly "can we talk this whole thing properly? please let's go back in the resort first" malumanay na pakiusap neto but my sister refused to come with her instead she looked at me and slap me real hard "elara goddamn it!"

i whole heartedly accepted that slap, i do deserve that.

"how dare you, show your fucking face here after leaving us all clueless where to find you?" galit nitong untag, i just looked at her tiredly

i'm honestly tired from all this confrontation

"fucking talk to me!" i held her hand when she's about to push me

"don't touch me" i put down her hands and look at her seriously "you want it" i told her meaningfully

"i don't fucking need to explain to you, because you fucking want it and you wished for it." i says again "i had a thousands reasons to leave elara and you don't want to hear it i'm telling you" i gaze at them darkly

bumibilis yung tibok ng puso ko sa halong halong emosyon, i don't want this kind of feeling

"are you using some gasligthing tekniks? that won't work sister" madilim itong tumingin sakin

"i don't need some tekniks elara. i read it in your laptop your heart hurt everything will be gone and the happiness will be back if my sister happen to be gone" i smile sadly "thats what you wrote there, i wasn't planning to think whats better for you for once but dad threaten me the picture of me and sapphire kissing he'll spread it and sapphire's name will be ruin if i didn't leave the country!" i confessed and now all the tears is already falling on my cheek

i agressively wiped it pero patuloy lang ito sa pagtulo, nakakainis

i sadly look to the both of them "i didn't wanna leave.. but instead of going to florida i chose to be free from all of you from all the heartaches, it's hard el its so hard being alone fighting your own will" i cried harder

they both look shocked at may tumutulo naring luha sa mga mata nila

"kailangan ko kayo non, i badly wanted to tell you everything i even wanted to begged you if you can allow be with your best friend because i know you, malaki pagiisip mo elara you wouldn't use your sickness againts it" i weakly added "but no one stopped me." i chuckled sarcastically

"not even you, not even you" i pointed to the both of them "i don't claim myself the victim here el because now i'm finally happy on my own life" i lastly said and left them both, i cried so hard i didn't go back straight to our room because i know ez will be worried seeing me like this

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sapphire's pov

nakatulala akong naglalakad pabalik ng lobby, eli left me after that confrontation with her sister, it's so painful seeing how she handle everything on her own

thats the reason why i can't find the girl i met before, she change a lot. she looks okay but not really she looks the same tough girl but she really wasn't like it because there's still pain on her eyes that had left

she still remembers everything, i wonder who hugged her when the times she's breaking down when the times she needs someone? who's with her? that guy?

that guy? is he nice? does he take care of her? does he prepare her, her favorite snack oreo and milk? maybe he does

she deserves to be taken care of, because all this time she always put someones sake before hers

i should be the one who's with her right now, but how can i fucking do that? we all have our own struggle, i can't leave elara she wants me and needs me

and while i'm taking care of my best friend the girl i love is having a hard time because of pain we caused her

fucking damn it

"she's here every christmas" i turn around when i heard someone spoke behind me "si aelia, bumabalik siya dito every christmas with me" i gently wipe my tears and look at blane fier walking towards me

"she even go to the hospital para magbayad if ever the doctors find a donor for her sister, she even hired a private investigator para malaman kung anong lagay ng pamilya niya, tita babe tito rich and mostly her sister" she said seriously and plainly smile "when your company launch she's there you know? she left a daisy flower when you got your new home" i clenched my fist, at kunot noong hindi makapagsalita dahil sa mga nalalaman

the daisy flower, i receive it it also has a note saying 'i'm proud of you.' i thought its also one of the fan. i also remember to those all flowers i receive dun lang ako natuwa and i even kept it

"she didn't stopped looking out to all of you, but after her three years in australia she stopped it she let me go back here on my own, and i'm so proud of her when she did because i know it's for her own good, the only thing she didn't stop is getting a news on whats happening to all of you here using her private investigator" she continued "i'm telling you all this because i don't want you keep hurting her all over again, she had enough sapphire let her be in peace i beg you" she told me and left napahilamos ako at nanlalambot na napaupo sa buhaginan

"urghh fuck!" i crused hitting the sand in irritation