𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 (𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟) 𝘢 𝘳𝘫 𝘢𝘶

if u go down, then we go down together

Ricky's POV

It's been one week since I've started dating EJ, but it feels different this time. I just feel as if I'm gonna screw everything up like I always do. He doesn't deserve me. Nobody does.

I was driving off to EJ's house because I left some of my homework at his house. Then, he's going to drive me to school.

"Sometimes we fly, sometimes we fall. Sometimes I feel like we're nothin' at all"

I knocked on the door and EJ...EJ's dad opened the door. "Hey, uh, I'm Ricky. One of..uh...EJ's friends." I lied. I know his dad might not like me. I can literally tell from his eyes.

"Hey Ricky, I'm Cash. Uh, come inside. EJ's in his room." he muttered, probably because I was wearing a pride flag shirt. Shit.

"Uh, thanks, sir." I said. I walked inside, took off my shoes, and headed to EJ's room. I opened it and saw EJ full-on working out. His shirt was off, he was doing pushups, and he looked hot doing it. Part of me wanted to say hi, but I didn't wanna interupt.

Well, before I knew it, EJ looked up and saw me and stopped. "No, no, keep going." EJ chuckled.

"Hi, angel." he said, lifting me off the ground. "Hey, you good?" I nodded my head.

Dream in the light, dance in the dark. You fill the spaces inside of my heart, mm"

"I'm okay, I just ran into your dad." I said.

"Oh, I'm sorry if he said anything." he spoke. I began to twiddle with my thumbs. "You good?"

"Yeah, yeah, I'm okay." I fake smiled at him. I went on twitter last night and saw so many people at my school saying that I'm a murderer. Guess Thiago's word came around.

"I can tell when you aren't okay." EJ said, holding my hand. "Please tell me what's wrong, love" He kissed my hand to soothe my pain.

"Am I really mine? Are you really yours? If all your emotions cut straight to your core

"I just feel tired." I lied. He raised his eyebrow, but then shook his head and then went back to smiling at me.

"Well, I gotta drop you off at school, beautiful." he said. "Oh, also, you forgot your Civics binder here." He gave me my binder.

"Thanks." I said. He gave me a kiss on the cheek. "Now, you should drive me to school before we get late."

"Yeah, I will. Let me get my keys." I looked into EJ's eyes and thought about us. Do I really deserve him? Does he even love me? "What?" I smiled at him.

"Nothing." I said. "Uh, let's go to school."

"Times when you cry, I feel it all. Whenever you leave me, I'll wait for your call"

----- SCHOOL

I was walking in the hallways, and people were whispering and staring at me. "Look, that's the kid who murdered his friend." someone whispered. I gripped onto EJ's hand, trying to soothe myself. EJ noticed that people were whispering about me.

"Hey, it'll be okay." he said. I lightly smiled and kept walking, ignoring all the people. I saw Thiago and quickly looked away, but EJ let go of my hand and walked to up him. "What the fuck did you do?"

"I just told everyone the truth." Thiago said.

"Well, it isn't the truth!" EJ yelled. I squeezed EJ's hand and he looked at me. "If you go down, then we go down together."

"You are everything I'm living for"

"Don't fight Thiago, at least not in school." I told him. He shook his head and walked away, taking my hand.