𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 (𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟) 𝘢 𝘳𝘫 𝘢𝘶

i'm so into you

Smut in this chapter smh

EJ's POV

Ricky and I were in his room, silent. Very quiet. In fact, you can hear a pin drop from a mile away. It was just him and I in one quiet room. Why was it so awkward?

"Uh, we should probably get started-"

"I think we need to clear the air, Richard." I said a little roughly. "Okay, just put the sex thing beside and pretend nothing happened." Ricky scoffed at me.

"You can't just pretend that you didn't take my virginity! I mean, it's a pretty hard thing to adjust to." Ricky admitted. He wasn't wrong. I couldn't help but notice some red liquid bleeding through his blue hoodie.

I grasped onto his arm. I pulled up him sleeve. "Dude-"

"Oh my god." It was such a deep cut into his skin. I was half paralyzed. All of his cuts were different. I pulled Ricky into a hug. "I'm sorry,"

"I'm so into you, I can barely breathe. And all I wanna do is to fall in deep"

I felt his warm breath against my cheek. "Please tell me what happened." I whispered. I looked at him with sorrow eyes. His deep brown eyes always made me happier.

"Nothing," Ricky shrugged it off. "Just a lot in my life-" then all of a sudden, I feel a volcano of tears soak into my chest. I held on his hair, and he kept crying on me. "Why do things have to be so complicated?" He cried. It made me so sad.

What happened next, I swear I was possessed. I pulled Ricky into a soft kiss. It was so silent. "I-I'm sorry-" Ricky started pulling me into a full-on makeout session. It felt so emotional, out of a romcom.

"Oh, baby, look what you started, the temperature's rising in here"

Then, it got steamy, and literally. The room temperature started to increase, as the kisses started pacing back and forth. I went down to kiss his neck, and I hear soft moans escape Ricky's mouth. "EJ-"

"Do you want me to stop?" I asked. I had a little bit of tears in my eyes. "Because I'm confused as fuck right now." The curly boy looked at me so sadly. I wish for once, I could make him happy.

"No, I don't. That's why I cut myself yesterday. I'm a fucking slut-"

"No, you aren't. You aren't a slut." I said to him. I gave him a kiss. "You're an amazing guy."

"So baby come light me up, and baby, I'll let you on it"

I smiled and wiped the tears from my eyes. "Come follow my lead." I smirked and started kissing his neck. "Mmh, Elton-".

"Shh, hear it." I made him listen to the faint noise of his heart beating, and his moans progressing.

"We're doing this again?" Ricky asked quietly.

"Only if you wanna." I smiled. I let go of his neck and trailed towards his lips, crashing together. Our tongues were wrestling each other, as my hands were walking to his hair. I tugged on it and pulled Ricky down to the bed.

"A little bit dangerous, but baby, that's how I want it"

I began to unzip his blue hoodie and he unbutton my shirt. "Not gonna lie, you're kinda hot." Ricky complimented. I can see his face turning to a bright red.

"Touché." I smirked. I unbuckled his belt and started sliping down his jeans.

"Uh, shouldn't we not be doing this? You're straight. I'm gay. I don't have feelings for you." Ouch. Wait, why ouch?

"I'm just having my fun?." I replied, as he began to take off my clothes. I saw some cuts on his leg and arm whic made me feel a little bit uncomfortable, but it's okay.

"Ignore the scars, just symbolizes the shit I got through." he ranted. "Sorry, I -" I interupted Ricky with a kiss.

"You talk too much." I smiled. I took off Ricky's boxers and began to stroke his penis.

"A little less conversation and a little more touch my body"

He moaned as I began to suck his dick. "Oh my god, here we go again." I giggled a little bit. I hummed into his dick so his cock could feel my mouth's prescence. "EJ, I'm gonna c-"

Just like that, Ricky started cumming on the bed. Another one bites the dust. I take his cock out of my mouth. "There, now can we study?" Ricky asked. I don't know why, but I felt butterflies fluttering in my stomach.

"I'm so into you, into you, into you"

-------------- THE NEXT DAY / SCHOOL

I was at my locker when my locker was being slammed. "Hey, Rocket Man." Thiago said. Thiago and I did our handshake. "Did you meet the new kid? She's so dope."

"No, I haven't. What's her name?" I asked my friend.

"Oh her name is-" Then, all of a sudden, a girl with dirty blonde hair walked in the room. She had a very bright smile, a leather jacket, and a skull tattoo on her wrist.

"Maddox Miller." Thiago said. "Wassup, Gadget!" Maddox went to high five my friend. "This is my best friend, EJ Caswell, aka Rocket Man." Maddox went over to shake my hand.

"Hey Rocket Man, I'm-"

"Maddox, I know. Wait, are you Jet Miller's sister?" I asked. Jet is Ricky's friend, and also he was in my freshman civics class.

"Yeah. I just needed a break from life, so I moved in with my aunt in Colorado, and now I'm back! Where is Jet?" she asked me. I found Ricky walking in the hallways.

"Ricky! Do you know where Jet is?" I asked him. Oh god, the feeling came again. The butterflies. I never felt this way for anyone. What does this mean?

I felt a warm touch on my muscle. "Uh, yeah I know. He's at his locker." Ricky replied. I knitted my eyebrows. I looked at who was feeling my muscles and to my surprise it was Ricky Bowen.

"Got everyone watching us, so baby let's keep it secret. A little bit scandelous, so baby don't let them see it"

"Where's his locker?" I asked. He scoffed at me and pointed to Jet. I saw Maddox walking to Jet and hugging each other. I wish I wasn't an only child. I want an older brother or a younger sister I could hug.

"You seem down," Ricky said, as he was quietly seducing me in the hallway, "want me to cheer you up?" Ricky grabbed my hand and took me to an empty classroom. He locked the door and started to makeout with me.

"Fuck, slow down." I said.

"What, can't keep up, Caswell?"Ricky smiled and kept kissing me.

"Ricky,  we're at school-"

"Shh," Ricky put his finger on my lip. I sucked on his finger. "You talk too much." I directed my focus back to Ricky's lips.

"A little less conversation and a little more touch my body."

"Okay, class starts in five minutes, lets go." Ricky let go of my lips and unlocked the classroom.

In english class, everyone was whispering about me. I have no idea why. "I heard EJ kissing a guy at school," someone whispered. Oh shit. RICKY.

I looked at Ricky madly. "What the fuck, dude." I whispered.

"I didn't say anyth-"

"Save it, we're not friends anymore."

"We were never friends." Ricky scoffed. The bell rung and class started.

"I'm so into you, into you, into you"