My Sanctuary

𝕊𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕫𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕒𝕟𝕕

"Toni. You don't have to ignore him or insult him just because of me. He's your brother, you need to talk to him." I sigh, she does. I don't want to be the reason that two people who shared a womb, hate each-other.

"Uh no I don't. He was cruel and deceptive plus he lied and manipulated me and mum. I'm not letting that slide. Why should I?" She asks and I roll my eyes.

"Maybe because he's your brother. Or the fact he's your twin and you shared a womb together?" I counter.

"It's a miracle how that sperm cell won. I mean out of them all why did he win?" She pauses then looks at me. "Seriously. You understand science."

"Toni. I love you I do but I don't want to be the reason you hate your own twin." Her eyes widen and I realise what I just said and she shoots up and hugs me.

"You said you love me!" She squeals, wrapping her arms tightly around my shoulders. "You've never said that, even when I tell you all the time!"

I laugh and pat her back awkwardly, once again. "Oh come one. You already knew."

"Okay we're going to work on the hugging." She murmurs as she pulls away from me.

"I don't have a problem with it. Or at-least I didn't with Adr-" I pause and close my eyes, the betrayal washing over me. I slam my suitcase closed and look at Toni. "You know what pisses me off the most?"

"Do I want to know?" She jokes as I place a hand on my hip.

"I still care about him. That's what pisses me off. It's like, that one week where we weren't insulting each other or stealing each others books, it felt safe and comfortable. I felt happy and even after everything that he's done and said I still fucking care about him. He's like an onion. I peeled back the layers and for a while it didn't sting my eyes, until it got so overwhelming that it made me cry. But I still care and I hate that with a fucking passion." I exclaim, roughly pulling the zip around the suit case to close it.

"Lina..." Toni says softly walking towards me and placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Am I being dramatic feeling so hurt by what he did?" I ask.

Tonis eyes widen and she vigorously shakes her head. "No! Are you kidding. He was cruel and I don't just mean funny cruel, I mean Mother Gothel from Rapunzel cruel."

"Yeah but if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have left the house to begin with and now look. I go out all the time but if he hasn't have given me the push to do it. I'd still be sat in the house."

"No you wouldn't have. You would have gotten over it eventually. I know you would have. Your strong Lina and you don't give yourself any credit." Toni tells me when her phone chimes. "Can you check that while I go to the bathroom?" I nod my head as she walks to her en suite and when I read it my eyes widen and I rush into the bathroom.

"T! T!" I shout as I open the door and she's sat on the toilet. "Jocelyn just messaged you! And she's single now!" I exclaim excitedly and Toni's eyes bulge and a grin appears on her face.

"Are you kidding? You better not be kidding!" She yells and I shake my head and hold her phone out in-front of her. "Oh my god!"

She gets up as I rush out the bathroom and she washes her hands before jumping on to her bed.

"Okay what did she say?" I ask, turns out in the excitement of seeing the message I didn't actually read it.

"She wants to meet up at the bookstore again." Toni says.

"Wait. That's so cute why don't you seem too excited?" I ask and she lets out a groan.

"Because she hasn't messaged me in over two months but the second she breaks up with her girlfriend she messages me? Isn't that a red flag?" She asks and it takes me a minute to process.