When I'm With You

Chapter 40

I felt a soft touch on my head.
I lay my head on Rishma's lap for more than an hour.

All these days, I was sitting alone in my room with the door closed when I failed every audition. But at that time I did not get the peace I wanted.

Today when I sit in her presence, my mind repeatedly tells me that nothing bad has happened in my life.

"Tiny." I said in my husky tired voice.

She stopped caressing my hair and asked, "Huh?"

"Can you please make me some coffee?"

"Yeah."

I sat up. She went to the kitchen.

I closed my eyes and sat without thinking for anything for a while.

Opened my eyes and glanced at each of the notices that I dropped below. Then looked at the table.

One more notice is left. My last hope.

Thud.

I changed my gaze towards the kitchen.

Rishma took the coffee powder and jumped from the slab. I was scared when I first heard this sound, but she got used to jumping and I got used to hearing it. 

She has made up her mind that no matter how much she jumps, she will never call me to help her to get coffee powder.

••••

"Not bad. You screamed at your maximum. Is there any problem with you?" The director asked me with raising his eyebrows.

"Two months ago I met an accident. I couldn't talk and move my body properly." I said.

"Then why did you come here? Take care of your health, child."

Man, I know you are going to reject me, in a different way this time. Don't know how humans are finding reasons to avoid someone.
"Films are the only thing I want in life. For that I will take any good path in any situation."

He put his hand on the table and supporting his chin,
"You can be dedicated. But it shouldn't be too much."

"I've been following this dream for three or four years sir. Please sir. Give me a chance. I promise, I'll do as you say. Act as you say."

He closed his eyes tightly as if he heard something he shouldn't have heard.
"No.. no.. no."
He opened his eyes.

"The first thing an actor should know is how to act differently from other actors. If you act exactly as written in the script, you will hate to act. We should always try to be unique." He smiled.
I exhaled helplessly.

"What is this, sir? Each person says things in a different way. Why is this world like this, sir?" I am mentally exhausted now.

"This is how the world is, Chris. Like cinema, every filmmaker has a different personality."

I looked at him. Life taught him a lot. I can feel it from his words and behavior.

"Many people have many opinions when they leave the theater after watching a movie. Some say it's overacting, others say the make-up is boring, the costumes are good, the costumes are not good, the background music is good, it was boring, it was thrilling... We choose every best thing to perform in front of the screen. It doesn't mean that every people like the best, even when a movie is made like this, people always look for the best actors."

I was stunned by his words.

"Didn't you say that you have been following this for four or three years? There are people who have not even got a single film despite following this path for three or four decades. There are people who have had to throw away their dreams to the trash because they could not become anything. It's all about luck. There are people who have reached the heights without fighting, and there are those who have reached the heights after fighting. Even today's hot guy have to play the grandpa role in his future films. Here, everything depends on time and luck, if you have luck. You too can see your dreams come true."