The Possessive Psychopath

Chapter 38

Chapter 38: The Game

Victoria Abbel's Point of View

I've been tossing a lot to my seat. Para bang hindi ako mapakali habang pinapagmasdan ko si Trevor kasama ng kanya pang ibang mga kaibigan. They are all talking to each other with full of laughters. I blew out my red-streaked hair out of my face.

"If only looks can melt a people, Victoria. Malamang ay kanina pa natutunaw si Trevor."

"Elizabeth! Of course I'm not looking at him." Pilit na tanggi ko, kahit hindi na mabilang sa kamay ko ang pag sulyap sa kanya. Siguro dahil naninibago lang ako sa new hairstyle ni Trevor na bumabagay naman talaga sa histura ng binata.

"Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Parang sinabi mo na rin na lumilipad ang baboy." I tried not to roll my eyes at my cousin's remark. A freezing wind blew off the ocean. The sun is also ready to set. The gentlemen are all sitting on the white sand, they're in a circle position while drinking beer in a can. While I'm with Elizabeth, Reeve, and Marsh in the cottage eating canapés.

"Bakit mo iniiwasan si Trevor, Tori? I'm so sorry for asking, I don't mean no harm." Napatingin ako sa gawi ni Marsh. I heard Elizabeth sneered. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.

"Pati si Marsh napapansin ang pagiwas mo." Elizabeth said. Napasimangot tuloy ako at napasalampak sa aking inuupuan.

"It's not like I'm avoiding him." I blew off some air. I gave Trevor a quick glance and bring back my attention to the three of them.

"It's just that I'm so done with him. And all of you know that." It's not a secret to everyone that I used to have feelings for Trevor. Hindi ko naman tinatanggi. Actually, baliw na baliw talaga ako sa kanya... dati. Ngunit, ngayon na maraming nangyari sa akin sa nakaraang buwan, matagal ko nang tinanggap ang aming tadhana. The moment when he told me that he would never like me when I was a kid, I should have stopped back then. When someone said no, you shouldn't keep on trying. Even though I'm aware that our feelings are not mutual, I was engrossed in a fairytale-like situation where I convinced myself that there is hope. Maybe because I was afraid of rejection. My mind was consumed by my irrationality. And because of this, I got cognitive dissonance. I sigh. I also got this dopamine chase where I love the thrill of chasing Trevor. I used to think that uncertainty is sexy. Uncertainty is Trevor. So, Trevor is sexy.

Another sigh came from me. And because of this obsession for reciprocation, I developed a limerence towards Trevor.

But, you shouldn't really chase a person. Either you'll make them uncomfortable or you'll suffer. That was what I learned throughout my hospitalization journey. It was hard at first. My time in the hospital wasn't easy. I got a lot of episodes during my stay, I felt sad and hopeless, and getting through the day was almost impossible. Thank God, I'm fine now.

"Anyway, where is our room here? I feel really sticky. I want to change my clothes, too." Napapikit na lang ako nang inaalala na hindi pala ako binigyan ni Nikos ng pagkakataon na magempake ng mga damit.

"Actually... we still don't have a room in the hotel." Namilog ang mata ko dahil sa sagot ni Elizabeth.

"And the clothes?" Elizabeth bit her lower lips, trying not to get annoyed.

"We have to earn it."

"What? What do you mean?" Hindi na nakasagot sa akin si Elizabeth nang tumayo si Nikos mula sa pagkaupo sa buhangin. I watched him wipe the remaining sand on his summer shorts. Tinaas niya ang dalawang kamay niya habang ang isa ay may dalang beer.

"Okay, ladies and gentlemen, gather up. We're going to play a game! Wooh." He was the only one who looked excited. Nagkatinginan naman ang mga kalalakihan habang nakakunot ang mga noo. Mukhang kahit sila ay walang kaide-ideya sa gustong gawin ni Nikos.