Reckless (Epistolary)

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"Hi! You look lovely today! I'm nurse Solidad or you can just call me sister Sol. I am your nurse today, how are you?" I asked the young patient with a smile. Masigla ang boses ko habang kinakausap ang pasyente pagkapasok na pagpasok ko palang sa loob ng k'warto.

I can't just face a patient with a grumpy face so I need to smile and be cheerful all the time lalo na kapag bata ang pasyenteng kausap ko.

"Hi. . ." The child politely smiled at me.

"Where's your mom?" I asked. Bahagya akong lumapit sa hospital bed niya.

The little girl shook her head. "My mom went out to answer a call." Her voice is so sweet! Ah, I'm trying really hard right now to stop myself from pinching her cheeks!

"Is that so?" Hindi nawawala ang ngiti sa labi ko. "I am going to check your temperature now, is that okay?" I still patiently asked and the girl nodded her head silently as a response. She's so cute, and pretty!!

The little girl was so polite with me until I finished my work. When I bid my goodbye to her already, saka naman pumasok ang parents nito kaya magalang ko silang binati.

"There are many patient today. Are you okay, nurse Sol?" My co-nurse asked me nang makalapit ako sa kanila.

"I am still fine. How about you guys?" I asked them back and smiled.

Kitang kita kung paano sila nag pu-pursigi talaga sa trabaho. Kung gaano sila ka dedicated kahit sobrang pagod.

"I'm about to die!" One of my co-workers answered that made us chuckled. "I'm already beyond my working hours! I really need rest after all of this."

I chuckled and nodded. "You do, nurse Gale."

We continued our Individual work after our little chitchat. Even if some of us are complaining sometimes, we still do our work wholeheartedly.

~*~

"Sol! Mygad, kung ako sa 'yo umuwi ka na! Ikakasal na ulit si Lorhane at Riko! 4 years old na rin ang inaanak mo! 'Di ka ba naiinggit na nasubaybayan namin ang pag laki ng inaanak mo?! Ang dami mong na-missed!!!"

I chuckled pagkatapos ang mahabang sinabi ni Marie. She's still loud as before. Tinawagan ko sila pagkauwi na pagkauwi ko dahil kinukulit nila akong makipag-video call no'ng isang araw pa pero hindi ko agad nagawa dahil sa sobrang busy sa hospital.

Ilang minuto pa kaming nag usap bago napagdesisyunan na magpaalam na dahil may gagawin pa si Marie.

After our call ended, agad kong naisip ang sinabi ni Marie. It's true that I missed a lot of events. Naiiyak ako kapag naiisip ko na ang dami kong dapat na nasaksihan but at the end of the day, I'll just comfort myself that it is okay. That makakabawi pa ako sa lahat. That it is not too late.

Si Marie at Joseph kasal na. Nope, not with each other. Akala ko rin ay sila ang magkakatuluyan until I realized that they are better as friends. Hindi rin naman nila nakikita ang isat isa as couple. They'll just vomit if I will insist.

Si Jhona, ayaw niyang makasal. Wala rin naman akong nababalitaan na may boyfriend siya. While Ella and Eva are also married already. Sila Pat naman ay kasal na rin, in short, napag iiwan na ako.

They already have their own family. Ang dami ko ng inaanak who will pull in line to recieve my gifts at christmas.

And Farrel?

It's been 4 years. I didn't believe at first that he can actually wait for me but yes, he did.

2 years ago, I saw him here sa states. He became one of my patients. Nagka lagnat siya, and I can feel that time that he is slowly pursuing me. Lowkey rin siya kung gumalaw talaga! But he's cute so nevermind.

I also slowly made him enter my life again kahit na ang totoo, hindi naman siya umalis ng tuluyan sa buhay ko. Lalo na sa isip at puso ko. Nagustuhan ko na siya ng sobra before leaving the philippines, but I just got afraid that I will just hurt him in the end.

And now, with him, I am already and fully okay. I am at my peace now.

"Mi amor." An arm wrapped around my waist from behind. A smile immediately form into my lips.

"Farrel, I'm planning to go home to the philippines." I immediately told him my plans. "Let's get married there."

I heard a small gasp from him. Agad niya akong pinaharap sa kaniya.

"W-What. . . Love, are you. . ." He groaned nang hindi siya makabuo ng sentence at nang mag simulang magbasa ang mga mata niya. He hugged me tightly and rested his face on my neck, trying to hide his face. "But you said last night after I proposed that you will still think about it."

I can't help but to laughed! Para siyang kid na nagsusumbong kasi inagawan siya ng sweet candy! I can already imagine his face na naka pout!

"I actually want to surprise you kasi ikaw lagi may surprise sa akin. I want to do something for you naman."

"Silly." He chuckled. Mas lalong humigpit ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin. "Let's do it, Sol. Let's marry there. I am the happiest tonight, thank you so much."

"I have another surprise, but of course it's a surprise pala." I pouted.

Ano ba 'yan! I almost said it! I can't really keep a secret to him kasi nasasabi ko agad! Ugh!

He just chuckled and pinched my cheeks lightly. "I love you." He then kissed my pouted lips.

I love him too.

He made me feel the love that I didn't know I deserve. He saved me from all the bad things that happened to me. I saved myself but he is also part of it. He showed me what a healthy, and loving relationship is. And I do thank God for giving him to me.

I can still remember how I gave him a silent treatment before kapag may pinapansin, kinakausap o nilalapitan siya na babae na hindi ko kilala before.

But iyon lang talaga siya. That's how he is. He's friendly, and helpful. He shows humanity to everyone and that's why I am also proud of him because he knows how to respect. He practice basic human compassion and not like before, I don't get easily jealous anymore. Minsan, ako pa ang tumutulong sa iba gaya ng pagbibigay ng sweater to those who is shivering because of cold. He's a gentleman who also knows his limitations and never forget to assured me.

Then I remembered telling him that I am too much for him to handle. But I think you are not too much for the right people.