BEAUTIFUL PAIN

Ch. 3 ~ What Makes You Beautiful

Lily's P.O.V

"Why in the world would you do this?" Asks Liam while damping some alcohol on my wrist.

"I always do this." I shrug. He gets the band aids and starts wrapping that around my wrist.

"But WHY is the question. "

"It...it feels...I don't know..." i sigh. "I do it when in hurt or angry with my self I guess."

He finishes and looks me dead in the eyes. "You did it because Zayn hurt you?" He sounds a little mad.

"Yea..." I bite my lip and look at him.He looks like he's about to explode so I look back down at the floor.

"Please don't be mad. I'm sorry. I'm used to it. The name calling, the cutting, the hurt, the feelings, everything. I'm feel numb after all this," I point at my wrist, "happens."

"Love," He sighs, "I'm not mad. It's just...it's not right what you are doing. It hurts me seeing you or the others hurt ya' know? And don't be sorry. It's alright. Just don't do it again, okay?" He gives me a weak smile.

"I can't promise that I won't do it again-" I begin but He interupts me.

"Yes you can. Look," He grabs my hands and puts it in his."I can help you get through this. I'll be here if you need me. I'm here for you. Don't worry about anybody else just worry about your health and me, I'll be here every step of the way. Just don't do it again...Please?" He gives me a pleading look.

I really don't know what to do. Trust my idol who I just met about an hour ago or keep hurting myself. I've tried. Really. I have. My mom has sent me to therapy and a health center but none of that worked. So how can I promise Liam I won't do it again?

" Liam...don't do this..." I say.

"Do what?" He asks.

"Don't use your Daddy charm on me. I'll just end up disappointing you. I've tried and tried to quit but I just can't. It's either cutting or hanging."

"There is not going to be any cutting or hanging while I'm here. I'll be around you 24/7 if I have too. I'll even put cameras everywhere. Even in the bathroom. You wouldn't like that would you now?" He nudges me.

I cover my face with my hands so He can't see the blush coming up my cheeks. "God, no."

"It wouldn't be a bad idea though..." I can here the smirk in his voice.

"I thought that would be something Louis or Harry would say not you. Are you alright? Do you have a fever or something?" I check his forehead and He laughs, I gladly join in.

"You're beautiful. " He says after we calm down.

"Yeah, right." I scoffed looking down.

"You really are. If you weren't I wouldn't have said it." He lifts up my chin with his forefinger and thum. We look into each others eyes. His dark brown into my hazel eyes.

"You really are. Belive me. I know beauty when I see it. And you are truly beautiful. "

"No one's ever told me that besides Sandy and my family. Thanks. " I smile. Really. No one's ever told me I'm beautiful. It feels wierd when someone tells you besides your closest friend or family.

He starts leaning in. Oh. My. Doritos! I've never had my first kiss and this is just...AHHH! Okay. Don't panic. It's just a kiss what could possibly go wrong. He's taking to damn long on kissing me so I just go for it. I connect our lips together. His lips are soft. They taste like caramel. I could do this all day. I never thought my first kiss would be with a famous person. Let alone a guy from the world's famous boy band.