Sandra's P.O.V
"Wake up Sandra it's time to eat!" Screams my mother from downstairs.
I get out of bed and turn on the T.V. its says some kid died but I'm glad it's not me.
I know I say I wanna die but when the time comes I start being a cowerd and chicken out.
I turn off the T.V and plug in my iPod on the stereo. When I go to Pandora 'Little Things' by One Direction starts playing. I love Niall even though I know he won't love me back. I still love him. His hair, his abs, the way his shorts stick to his big bum when he gets out of a pool and the way you can see his butt crack. (Sorry I needed something to ryhm with 'back' )
I get un-dressed, stay in my underwear and bra and head for the bathroom. While turning on the tap I look in the mirror.
You're fat! Nobody likes you! Move to Alaska! We don't want you here! Go die in a ditch, no one will notice! No body cares you're not of importance!
It's Wednesday. Only 2 more days Sandra. You can do this. Maybe today no one will notice you.
2 more days of people telling you things and you cutting. Says the bitch in my head that I really with she would shut up now!
Hey! Its not my fault you're a fat pig that nobody likes!
Oh shut up! What would you know about people liking you?
I know they don't call me names that's for sure.
When I see a red spot in the sink "What the fuck?" I whisper to myself.
Those are your doings remember? You cut yourself.
I look at my left arm. 5 new scars are gonna form. I look at my right hand and I see that sharp object I used 2 days before.
I quickly hide it so my mom won't see because if she does she'll think I'm crazy and send me to therapy.
I remove my under wear and bra. I hop in the shower and scrub all of the evidence off.
I turn off the tap and look in the mirror and wipe it off so i can see myself clearer. I open it and get out some Band-Aids so no one would see. Well it's not like any body cares about me.
That's when Niall's part came on from the song:
'You never loved yourself half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right darlin' but I want you too
If I let you know I'm here for you, maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, ohh'
Maybe I do have some one that cares.
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