Read Between The Lines

Part 12

There was always someone better than me.

Without even consciously realising what I was doing I began to sing:

Manage me, I’m a mess

Turn a page, I’m a book

Half unread

I wanna be laughed at

laughed with just because.

I wanna feel weightless

and that should be enough

But I’m stuck in this fucking rut,

wait another second and pick me up

And I’m over, getting older

If I could just find the time

Then I would never let another day go by

I’m over- getting OLD

Maybe it’s not my weekend

But it’s gunna be my year

And I’m so sick of watching all the minutes pass as I go nowhere.

And this is my reaction

To everything I fear

Cause I’ve been going crazy don’t wanna waste another minute here.

God, singing always made me feel 100 times better. Nobody could hurt me when I was singing. I could just forget about my worries.

Singing gave me the strength to carry on.

I can’t rely on people like some can. But singing has supported me for as long as I can remember, without singing I would be dead right now.

Suddenly I was brought out of my thoughts by a familiar voice.

‘You know you really need to find better hiding places’

Looking up curiously from my position by the wall I saw the person I least expected to…

Josh was looking down at me with a half- smile on his face. ‘Was the conversation that bad that you had to run away?’ he questioned me with a teasing look in his eyes.

‘Josh’ I asked shock radiating out of me.

‘Hey Britt’ he softly answered whilst sliding down the wall to sit beside me.

I was so confused. Why would Josh be here? He should be in a hotel room fucking with Yvonne already. Why was he here with me? Did he come and find me for a reason?

Oh god he’s going to yell at me. He’s going to want answers about why I ran from the pizza parlour, and I can’t tell him that the girl he must have had dinner with bullies me. How will he react?

He probably won’t even believe me. Then what will I do? I think that would just break me even more. Don’t get me wrong I’m already broken but losing one more person could just crack me beyond repair.

Looking up at him suddenly I catch him staring at me with admiration in his eyes.

‘You can really sing, you know that right?’ He questions me. The route of the conversation instantly catches me off guard and I find myself stammering out a response. ‘oh eer no..’

‘SHUT UP, you can! That is one of my favourite songs and you sang it brilliantly. Alex William Gaskarth better watch out, he’s got competition’ he smirks at me whilst sending me a cheeky wink.

Without realising I immediately start to laugh at Josh’s craziness.

‘Nahh mate not a chance’ I sass back at him catching on to the jokey atmosphere.

Almost as soon as my sass is out of my mouth he sends me a smile, obviously feeling me loosen up and start to enjoy the conversation.

Out of nowhere he lets out a breath and I inwardly prepare myself for what he is about to say. Knowing that a sigh that big is defiantly not good news, I squeeze my eyes shut praying that he doesn’t talk about my disappearance from the parlour.

‘Britt you’re so strong, stronger than anyone I have ever met before’ he states with plain honesty in his tone.

My eyes fly open wide in shock.

Really?

Oh Josh if only you knew.

Authors Note

HEYY GUYSS HEYYY

HAY IS FOR HORSESSS!!! ;)

So guess who went to see one Direction in concert yesterday?

THIS GALLL

So because they gave me inspiration I updated for all you beautiful people.  

Guess who threw 1D love hearts at people?

Meee hahaha it was Brilliant!!!

LOL

This chapter is dedicated to someone who appears to be kinda new to Wattpad but she voted for every single one of my chapters I think so thank-you! You are officially my favourite person of the month. You literally made my month! I even put a picture of it on BBM (yes I am that sad but deal with it BITCCHHEESSS!)

Also the song that Britt sings in this part is very special to me and has helped me through a lot so I'll put it on the side for you if anyone wants to listen to it :) 

So yeahh If you went to the 1D concert yesterday or today then let me know in comments what song you thought was the best! Best comment gets a dedication next time!

Keep Reading! <3

Alsoooo I just wanted to say that…..

HARRY POTTER RULES!

PEACE OUT SUCKKERRSS

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