Benaam Rishta:An Invisible String

Chapter19

He pulled her closer. Palms pressed her cottony cheeks harshly. eyes turned red in anger. "Dare you utter this word again! Bondita, don't you know what you mean to me?  You are my life but here you are beg........" His eyes squeezed shut to keep voice down. Caressing her cheeks, placed a soft kiss on her forehead. Said softly " I love you... more than you can ever imagine. I too craved to show that but..... without any guilt...any inhibition....not...not like this...." His eyes teared up at the end. she swiftly wiped off them.

"I also do. Only you. The one I wanted, I desired is only you.....Anirudh Babu. But could never say. Whatever, today I want to say that. Show that...please..." She waited for him to say something but when he didn't utter a word, she stepped back from him, letting out a painful smile, said " I know, I'm the reason of your wife's death. But I'm such a shameless...I still here... demanding that rights from you. But what to do...I can't help....I can't stop myself from loving you. I know why...why you are hesitating to...love me...like I want. after all...I am the killer of your wife.........."

Her blabbering couldn't go further as he clasped her chin tightly. " No more word" she flinched to hear his hoarse voice. He didn't seem to be in intoxicated state anymore. she felt herself burning under his furious gaze. How could she say such things.....about her!Why did she separate him from her at every point?Aren't they one! If anyone is responsible for Binitha's death, it is both of them. So why does she only blame herself? this time he would not appreciate her selfless nature. Because it was taunt more than selflessness. She didn't believe in his love. Binitha was his wife and she is his love. But she questioned on his love for her. That hurted him. He was way guilty for Binitha's death'. punished him alone for that as he failed to fullfill responsibility of a husband. But he didn't want to be separated from her...his love. Never. The decision was her, which he was just following silently. But now.........

His irregular hot breath fanning her face as he pulled her closer. his countenance took a deep dark shade. He whispered in thick dengerous tone "You shouldn't have said those words. You don't know....I can burn you with my desire...if this is what you want as a proof of my love...." But her heart stirred in delight instead. He didn't let her react or think much, attacked on her neck. Kissing for a brief time he looked up to her, she tried to talk but this time he didn't let her. Locked their lips together. both of them indulged in battle of passion.

She shredded happy tears, moaned in pleasure as he expressed his love the way she wanted and filled her with his love. She too took chance and drenched him in her love, making him groan continuesly as she conquered him. Like this they loved each other throughout the night.. gently yet so passionately.

Being tired after a passionate session, they went into slumber engulfing each other to chest. even in deep sleep he felt her murmuring near his ear "I'm sorry" ....but couldn't open his eyes to see whether it was in dream or real....!!!!

Listen, I'm still gussa with you for those words. but not guilty for spending such heavenly nights with you, for loving you every possible way...as a man..your man. I just want to free you from this guilt. I want you to know that we didn't do anything wrong. Nothing happened because of our love. SHOTTI! But where will I find you??? 

Ufffff......the distance......is unbearable!

But don't worry, The distance maybe far and wide but I can feel your heartbeat. No matter how far you manage to go, distance will not be able to eras those beautiful memories.... I know as long as I'm breathing you are also safe somewhere. It just.....!  sometimes, Like our beginning, the ending of our life journey will be together...as they said it's  destined to happen, we are destined to take our last breath together....this thought encourages me to survive one more day.  So that One day we can meet for god's grace. Now All I pray to see you even for once before I complete the Span of my life. I wish to take my last breath peacefully in your lap. Please come back to me, Jaan. I want to confess once again...over and over again, losing myself in your deep orbs "Anirudh loves Bondita forever and ever..........."

He carved this most beautiful truth of his life on his beloved diary lovingly, which was his companion on every level in his ten years of lonely journey. Tenderly fondling the diary one last time he closed it and kept it on the table infront of him. Caressing the painted picture of her affectionately, he puffed in the superlative uneasiness , feeling acute helplessness on their so unfavorable fate in love. With an irrevocable wish to cuddle his beloved in his loving embrace, he layed down on the ground. And again started talking to her picture as always, with a lingering smile on his lips that he couldn't resist to see her beautiful smiling picture, along with pool of tears rolled down......." Like a butterfly comes back to the flower, like a bird returns to its nest, like the moon and sun appear in the sky, again and again...to enlighten the earth as promised....come back to me my moonshine, my sunshine. Without you my life is covered by dreadful darkness.......!!!