Benaam Rishta:An Invisible String

Chapter19

Please....!!!!

          Forever and ever Anirudh's Bondita

                             ..................

Lone tears trailed down his cheeks. letting out a painful smile he folded the letter. Lovingly caressed the wristwatch of his hand, kissed on that softly, opened his diary and started penning down....

My loveliest flower,

Seconds passed,
Minutes passed,
Hours passed,
Days passed,
Weeks passed,
Months passed,
Years passed......

And Like this....

Ten years passed......

Without you...my love.

It's been Ten years since I...last admired your beautiful smiling face, Last heard your melodious voice,your sweet laughter, Last held your cottony hands, Last was arrested in your deep soulful brown, last felt your plumpy lips against mine, Last melt you in my loving embrace to my heart's content and was drowned in the blissful warmth of your arms around me,last listened to our synchronising peaceful heartbeat which would created harmonious as the spirit of soul,last slept peacefully laying on your lap and relished that heavenly feelings of togetherness.......and that was probably the last time I felt truly alive. because the day you left, my heart, my soul also left me.... abandoning my physical shell. my body is spiritless without your soul. You painted my life with your Colours and  without you, the canvas of my soul is lurid. Without you, I'm not living but surviving...being a mere slave of this physical shell and cruel inevitable fate.

I know, We chose this path. Said that we would stay apart, would spend thousands of years, knowing we are under the same sky. But it's truly said, easy in theory, difficult in practice. Just while making this decision, I died a thousand deaths, had counted every single tears because losing you was my biggest fear and I couldn't help but lose myself in it.  

Hey Jaan, don't puff your Roshgolla cheeks. I know. I know you asked for so many promises from me. promise, to stay strong. promise, to keep smiling, to move on and live happily. Promise, to bear the pain of separation........but little did you know, your strong Barrister Babu is way weak in this case. He is so defenseless against his stubborn heart which always craves to see you. Which Is chasing after you, switching lanes. No words would be able to express how I feel Whenever the terrible truth hit me hard that I don't know how much more time I have to spend without you...to what extent this cruel destiny would take us away from each other.....!!

You know, this, your first later to me, It's my routine to read every night when the world is fast asleep and take a walk down memory lane.Your enamour voice locked in my ear, ran in a continuous loop, reverting that mesmerizing song over and over. Your intoxicating fragrance still nuzzles in my nostril, your celestial beauty that I worship every day. Remembering your cute sweet antics and our blissful moments I can't resist curling my lips into a satisfied smile. Neither I can stop my eyes streaming.

Sorry dear, I'm not that strong. This is what feels the hardest work of the world in absence of you. The world is too quiet and deserted without you. Where every single moment feels like an age. I miss you quite terribly helplessly, senselessly.

No. No, I'm not crying. I don't cry. SHOTTI..! Listen, my lips are silent. But.......my heart is becoming violent. It's growing restless. I tried hard but couldn't control. My stubborn heart insist me, beg me to find you, to go to you, to see you, to talk you, to tease you, to cry for you, to smile with you, to keep my head in your lap which provides me the needed comfort and solace the most, more than anywhere in the world and to feel those tingling sensation again as your slender fingers would ran through my hair meticulously, to read those unsaid words your deep doe shaped eyes would express in utter silence, joining our forehead, entwining our fingers...the serene moment. Only you and me. Only...Anirudh and his Bondita. My heart craves to love you again, shower all the love I have for you.......without any inhibition...!