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Chris -
sometimes I wonder if my life is worth living fully I feel like I'll be dead at the end of my time by the age of 30 with The way JYP does things like he works us but again you can never be
Too comfortable you can never relax because that's when tragedy takes place and you're very scared about   Everything that goes on but then you tell yourself not to worry about it because it  don't get you anywhere

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I just get you into a bigger pickle, then imaginable sometimes you just never know what to do or how to think or how to pray but I'm just really hopeful that
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I will stay healthy this year and that I won't have to worry about anything. I've already had sinus issues this year and it really scares me because I just want to be healthy and I just want to be able to relax and I just want to be able to be OK it but

I don't know if I'll get that far and it really scares me and sometimes you think about it closer than you no one does and yet you think about it more often than you should I mean

I could've died due to other issues but it's really scary because I just want to be OK and I know

I'm not OK so it's really great scary and then you think about it and then you start asking yourself well what if I'm not OK what if I'm not right what if what if I'm sick and understand and I'll that I'm sick. What if it's like some pointman cancerous tumor? I'm getting ahead of myself again.

I've never been that sick before but my boss doesn't really care about my health. All he cares about is the money that we can bring him .

I mean, I didn't see that at first  which is really scary but I am really hopeful that I will be OK and that I will make it out of here alive but you just never really know if you're gonna make it out of your life because you keep on asking yourself what if I did something? What if I did something to causes issues with my sinuses everything I can never have a decent day off to rest and when I am off, Liz is always fussing over me and it's really scary because you start asking yourself maybe

I did something wrong and Liz always served me that I did nothing wrong to be ill and it's just so scary for me that you know we're all at this place place in life that you know has made us feel like this so you start asking yourself around the time that you start getting the symptoms and they never go away and that's a scary thing so you start asking yourself maybe

I did something wrong but then you realize I've done nothing wrong and it's just really difficult to except that because you really want to except the fact that you've done nothing wrong and not think poorly but you are thinking poorly and it's really scary.

I don't know how to tell if I'm sick again all the sudden I remembered I was supposed to do an episode of cans room. I quickly the day episode

and I talked about topics that were bothering everybody but then Liz came and picked me on the cheek. I begin to cry the stays say  that I really need to tell her.