love lost

i do miss you

no,
i don't know why i miss you.
i mean really think about it,
you never got to know me
and i never got to fully know you.
you never had interest in knowing me
you never cared to know what i did in my spare time
or cared to know what my favorite color was.
i doubt you even remember my birthday.
which is funny,
cause you were the best part of my last one.

i don't know why your absence has suddenly caused me a burden.
but
every since you stopped replying
i cant seem to shake the thought of us never speaking again.
for some odd reason it crushes me
and we were never close so i don't really understand why.
but what i do know
is that you were there for me at the lowest point i've ever been in
and you didn't even realize how much you helped.
what i also know
is you were there when all the other people i call my "friends" weren't anywhere to be seen.
and lastly
what i know now
is i'm done trying.
i'm done trying to get answers, trying to get a response.
because now i understand.
       - i never really meant anything to you at all