Willing

A sneak peek in the past.

"Where are you going?"

"Nowhere."

"But you are all dressed up...is that new perfume you are wearing?"

"Yes and yes."

"Why are you wearing it? The perfume I mean."

"Just because."

"Aw, no. I like it when you smell like me. Never use perfume."

"......"

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"Are you okay?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"You..we haven't talked properly in two days."

"We are not kids, Drew. We don't need to share every single second of our life."

"O..kay. Relax baby."

The hurt I felt that time when he avoided my kiss, pierced my heart however the marks on his neck torn it in million pieces. Again.

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"Your family hates me."

"They do not, baby."

"Yeaaah right! They love me too much, so much that they would randomly suggest to move to a total different city. Right?"

"I mean, they are not wrong. New York is a big a city, there are million opportunities for us."

"Oh really! Okay. Then you go with them."

"With you."

"No. I am not leaving here, my whole family is here."

Then what about my family?

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"Hey."

"Hi."

"How are you..and your boy?"

"He has name, Kyala."

"Whatever. I called because Vern is celebrating twins first birthday. He called you so many but you didn't pickup. So be there with your mate. It's next month."

"I'll see."

"You'll see? Drew it's their first birthday."

"I know."

"Drew."

"I have work. I'll talk later."

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"For fuck's Drew, don't try to be my bodyguard."

" Jake, I am not trying to be your bodyguard. And if you don't want to act like one then don't do stupid shit."

"What stupid shit?"

"What were you doing in Alpha's office?"

"Nothing and none of your bussiness."

"Yes, it is my bussiness."

"Why? Because he is you Alpha."

"No. Because you are my mate."

He slipped out of the room, not even caring that his safety is proprietary and I will always choose him over this pack. I just want everyone in this pack to see him as one of them. Why is it so hard to understand?

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"Drew."

"Yes, Beta."

"Where is your mate?"

"Um..he is...he is with his parents. At their house."

"Did he ask for permission? Or he just assumed he can go over there anytime he pleases."

"He asked." I think.

"Drew, you know he didn't. None of you is a child. I suggest there shouldn't be a next time because he wouldn't like the consequences of it."

"Yes, Beta."

"And tell him to meet me when he comes back, also if he forgets to inform me that he is planning to go over his parents, probably the least I expect is, you can tell anyone."

"Yes, Beta."

But how would I tell? Even I don't know where he is.

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"What is this?"

"What?"

"Your neck, Drew."

"What about it?"

"There is no mark."

"And it is problem because?"

"Because you should have been marked by now, Drew."

"How many times do I have to tell you, Oliver? We are taking it slow."

"Just exactly how slow? It's been over three years now."

"Just drop it. It's between him and me."

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"I think Emily is pregnant."

"What?"

"Yeah she is."

"How do you know?"

"I just know. But that's beside the point, do you think the baby will be like Oliver or would they be a full human or they could be full blood werewolf like James."

"It doesn't matter. It's their kid."

"Well, I am curious."

"But why?"

"Just cause."

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"I..love...lo...ve you, Jake. I love you more than anything and anyone in this world."

"...."

"Why would you do that?"

"...."

"Why you always go back to that jerk?"

"...."

"Please, please say something."

"...."

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Ring. Ring. Ring.

"Pick up the phone, baby. Please pick up."

Ring. Ring. Ring.

That day the part of my heart which was clinging to last hope of love, died a little.

I felt the pain when Jake cried out in pleasure. When someone touched him intimately the way only I was supposed to touch him, kiss him and make loose him mind.

But the harsh reality is that I am not that person.

I never will be that person.

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Right, so go and be sad and hate me because I hate myself right now.
If anyone wants to punch they can, I will gladly take it.