Life As It Is

~ Chapter Fourteen ~

           This next chapter is about a personal experience. A important life lesson I learned at the age of 15. If you read this, know that your not alone. - Jenny

       The school year was slowly coming to an end and I finally managed to get myself out of a deep void of depression. That being said not to long after getting myself back on track did three nasty girls come into my life. I was "friends" with one of them for a long time. Until one day they all just started to hate me for reasons I didn't even know. I didn't know what I did wrong and I was being strongly verbally bullied. People were calling me "toxic" and other horrible nicknames that they didn't even know the meaning to.  A lot started to happen and not a lot of is was under my  control. In fact everything was out of control and I didn't know what to do anymore. I started back to relapse since it was one way I could get the pain out and  I started to go back to were I started. That maddened me so very much that I was powerless and I couldn't do anything because then I would risk possibly getting myself in trouble. The school had to get involved for a lot of it and my lord the girls didn't just stop there. One day they literally told me to stay away from one of my friends in a very nasty way and they called on me in the morning. That morning was a morning that I would never forget because of what happened

      The equality person told me that I was the problem and that I could no longer even say their name. I was in tears and I didn't know what to even do at that point anymore. They wouldn't listen to my story at all and everything that happened to me. They didn't care about it at all. They even called my parents about it. That's when they knew that they fucked it up badly. My parents weren't mad at me but at the school cause they knew all of this was happening and placed it on me. It took a long time before anything went back to normal and they were told to leave me alone. After going through that... it was hard for me to trust anyone again.

      In the next chapter it will be another personal experience, one would think that things would get better and in away it did get better. Though it also got worse... don't give out trust easily and always watch your back. The world is a harsh place and it's a place that no one should trust easily. Only keep a few close to your side and keep others that don't seem that trust worthy at your other side but at a good distance.