you're my one and only ; yeongyu

22; confusion

wooyoung grabbed the diluted americano and turned off the speaker before sitting down next to yeonjun, placing an arm around his friend's shoulders.

"why are you still here at this hour?"

"just stressed."

wooyoung hummed softly, squeezing yeonjun's shoulders.

"you'll do great in the evaluation."

yeonjun doesn't reply, and he felt his eyes watering.

"really?" he asked, his voice on the verge of breaking and wooyoung frowned at that.

"you were accepted to an out of state dance academy, and you're the ace in here. if they are going to recruit one of us, it's definitely going to be you."

"but am i really deserving of all of this?"

"of what?"

yeonjun took in a deep breath and let it out, wiping at the sides of his eyes.

"people's praises and admiration."

"of course, you own the stage once you enter it, and you've worked so hard to get to this stage where you are in."

yeonjun doesn't understand, all he's doing is putting on this fake persona, and people actually buy it and think that he's a legend?

"but it's all fake. they are admiring the fake me."

the room falls silent, yeonjun had tears of frustration burning his eyes, and wooyoung just sat there, offering yeonjun a shoulder to lean on.

"they don't see the side where i fail continuously just to get that one dance move correctly, they don't see me crying myself to sleep almost every night because of how unhappy i am, and they don't see how i'm really like. i'm so tired."

it sounded as if yeonjun was being dramatic, but he actually felt that way. after all, he can't keep up with this "perfect choi yeonjun" for much longer. he'll slip eventually, and he didn't want to be the punching bag in the school when the time comes.

"have you talked to beomgyu about this?" wooyoung asked, placing his hand on yeonjun's thigh and squeezing it lightly while yeonjun gently brushed away some of the tears that slipped past his eyes.

"no." he replied.

"why?"

yeah, why?

yeonjun stopped to think.

was he supposed to tell beomgyu about this?

why is he feeling obligated to tell him?

was he being a bad boyfriend?

"because i didn't want to."

wooyoung frowned at that, it wasn't a good sign.

"do you not trust him?"

"it's not that, i trust him with my life." yeonjun defended immediately.

"shouldn't he be your priority? he tells you everything about himself, and there isn't a filter between you two since you were kids."

yeonjun doesn't respond, and wooyoung doesn't press him further. he got up from the floor and brushed his pants, giving one last look at yeonjun who was staring blankly at him.

"don't stay up for too long, beomgyu's waiting for you at home."

yeonjun nods stiffly.

"i love you." wooyoung said, closing the studio door behind him.

yeonjun stared at the now closed studio door, his heart feeling heavy and he suddenly felt like crying all over again.

he's confused.

does he really like beomgyu?

or is he mixing up the feelings of a best friend and a boyfriend together?

beomgyu's extremely handsome, his bright doe eyes and small but cute smile plastered on his face whenever he saw yeonjun was one thing that made yeonjun smile whenever he thought of it.

but whenever beomgyu kissed him, he didn't feel butterflies in his stomach. he just felt normal. beomgyu's touch was soft, but he never craved for it. it just felt nice.

when realisation slowly dawned, yeonjun let out a soft "oh".

because he realised that he doesn't actually like beomgyu in a romantic way.

he continued to sit on the floor, this time feeling incredibly guilty.

he didn't know what to do.

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a/n: so in case yallz didnt see my other update post that i made abt 12 hours ago, i was sick today so i had time to type another chapter HAHAHHAA

my grandma is diagnosed with stage 3 bowel cancer, and she's turning 90 this year. she'll be going for an operation tomorrow to get rid of the tumour, but it's 8cm (which is gigantic) and it's a major operation.

hopefully the surgery would be a success and she'll be fine! i love her too much so even thinking of her leaving just makes me want to cry ㅠㅠ

anyways i hope you've had a good day, my day has been horrible, especially since whatever happened and i was dying in bed when i received a notification from my friend telling me that gyuri was leaving fromis_9

fromis_9 are my ults and i'm just DEVASTATED, especially since gyuri was my first bias since she acted in "it's okay not to be okay", and yeah i've been super sad today oh no...

have a good day/night lovelies<3