I know I'm not supposed to feel regret.
But what do I do if my heart is set?
Firm and blocked with silt, I created a wall to separate the world we built.
It left you broken and confused.
I stole that chance from you.
What's wrong with my soul?
Right through your heart I singed a hole. Why did you love me the way you did? There wasn't a part of you that you hid.
I recognized your heart was Vulnerable.
Which deserved a heart just as honorable.
Why did you put up with me?
If I could be loved by anyone, it'd be silly. The only one that breaks true love would be a fool.
And I know now what you endured was cruel.
It's wrong but I miss seeing love behind your eyes.
Recalling the warmth in your arms, makes me want to die.
Knowing I had something good and I let it spoil,
My soul torments me while I lament in turmoil.
Only your touch can calm me.
I'm tired of trying to convince myself otherwise.
I'm stuck on replay from a moment in the past.
My heart is still in sync not knowing it will soon be thrown in the trash.
I'm tormented day in and day out.
I've let rotten feelings spread throughout.
Every day life turns into our fallen love song.
Just to rub it in our face and prove us wrong.
I knew we were not meant to be. It was clear as day.
Yet I kept asking you to stay while my actions pushed you away.
I was dead inside, before I could even take my first breath.
Who knew our love would be an inevitable death.
The last of us died when I took off our promise ring.
And now I face the repercussions of my decisions.
The nicknames I used to call you now whisper bites of hell.
I can't block them out, or out run them. There is no shelter that could shelter me, not even the deepest well.
I'm stuck in limbo scared to face the solid truth.
The truth that maybe I'm not over you.
There's no cure for this; nothing that can soothe.
And reality knows and tells me it's too late to choose.
