What the hell am I doing. First I push my friends away, then hurt them when they won't back off. Everyone's leaving cause of me. I know they hate me, I know they do. I hate myself too tho. What I'm doing and saying is wrong and I know it but I'm reaching the time and feeling in my life where I don't want anyone in my life, then I start to push them away with words. And if that doesn't work I'll have to get disrespectful. And I fucking hate it. Why am I like this. Why can't I just be normal and not cause mess between me and my friends. I see why people send me death threats. I see why. I'm a horrible person who's fucked up in the head and deserves to die. I should jus kill myself already. It'll be like I never existed. Everything will be better. All I'm doing is making people feel bad about themselves and that's not cool. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I'm a terrible person and I hate myself. So damn much. I NEED to die.
I should just kill myself, shouldn't I? I'm no help anyway.
