It's all my fault, isn't it? It's my fault that he did what he did. I should have kept my mouth shut and I shouldn't have yelled at him. Now he's in physical trouble all because of me. Damnit. Why do I always fuck things up? Istg I fucking hate myself. I would try to take my life but I've already tried to take my own life twice this week. Ofc my friends/ siblings talked me out of it. But damn I wish they hadn't. I hate myself I'm always fucking shit up or saying shit I'm not supposed to. What the hell was I thinking?? I swear I'm a walking curse. I don't need to exist anymore. I'm tired of hurting my loved one's, it's very irritating and their starting to hate me for it. Hell, they might even disown me if I keep this shit up.
I feel so bad for him. I put him in trouble. Even tho he said that it was no one's fault, I still feel so guilty for it. I'll always hate myself for it. Damnit. I swear I don't need to be here any longer....
