The Love That Destroyed Us

CHAPTER 15

"Ano ba tayo?" Yohan asked while we were watching a show on the television.

His arm rested on the arm rest beside me. Sumiksik ako sa kaniya at sumandal sa kaniyang dibdib. Ang bango niya.

"Friends," I simply answered.

"Just friends?" tanong niya habang isinusubo sa akin ang popcorn.

"Why? Let's make it official?" I suggested.

We've been getting to know each other for two weeks already. Pag-uwi niya galing sa trabaho ay dito siya dumederetso. Kulang na nga lang, dito na siya tumira eh.

It's okay for me though. Iniisip ko lang na sobrang nakakalungkot para sa aming dalawa na walang uuwiang pamilya.

Well, gusto ko ring itanong sa kaniya noong nakaraang araw kung ano ba kami. Pero natatakot ako.

Kasi para bang ang bilis.

Natatakot ako na kung gaano kabilis magsimula ay ganoon din kabilis matatapos kung anong meron kami.

"I want to.." he muttered. "I want you to be officialy mine. Gusto na kitang ipagdamot sa iba."

I chuckled. "Okay," I agreed.

Kung ano mang mangyari, bahala na. Para kay Yohan, susugal ako. Kahit walang kasiguraduhan kung ipapanalo ko ba ito.

There's really no bad at trying.

I just know my limit. Ilang ulit ko nang ipinaalala sa sarili ko na hindi ko ibigay nang buo yung pagmamahal ko. Ayokong maubos.

I don't want to become like my mother. So foolish of love...

He kissed my lips. "I love you.."

"Thank you," I answered like what I always do.

Well, I couldn't really say I love him until I'm sure. I'm just thanking him for loving me, if he really do.

We were both busy for the next days. I am handling a new case and Yohan's got a new project. Still, we always find time for each other.

I was busy cleaning the table when I heard the sound of the door.

Alam ko na agad na si Yohan iyon. Sa kaniya ko lang naman ipinaalam ang password ng pintuan.

I stood in front of the door, ready to welcome him.

Nang bumukas ang pintuan ay bumungad ang pagod niyang mukha. Tila binagsakan siya ng langit at lupa. 

"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly.

He took a step forward and wrapped me in his arms.

"I'm tired.." mahinang bulong niya.

I caressed his hair.

"Nagkaroon ng problema sa trabaho," he ranted. "We were shouted by some client."

Nanatili kami sa ganoong pwesto.

He pulled away from our hug and smiled, even though he's tired.

"Our monthsarry's tomorrow. Saan mo gusto pumunta?" he asked.

Nag-isip ako sa kung saan pwedeng puntahan o anong gawin pero walang pumasok sa isipan ko. Wala rin naman akong kaibigan na kasama kong gumagala.

"How about horse riding?" he suggested.

"You know how to ride a horse?" I asked, thrilled.

"Of course," pagmamayabang niya.

I rolled my eyes and just agreed. Gusto kong panoorin kung paano siya mangabayo. And I want to ride a horse too!

Since I already ate, I served him foods to eat. Sobrang gutom na gutom daw siya dahil ang dami niyang ginawa kanina. I just watched him until he finished eating. I cleaned d the dishes and joined him in bed after that.

Ginawa kong unan ang braso niya at nagsumiksik sa kaniyang dibdib.

We didn't have time to landi landi because we're both tired at work so we dozed off to sleep immediately.

Morning came and I was very excited. We cleared our schedule for our first monthsarry celebration. It still feels new to me. I was like teenagare, experiencing her first love.

Well..first love doesn't always end up as last love.

Iwinaksi ko ang negatibong nasa isipan at nag-ayos na. Paniguradong nasa sala na si Yohan.

Since we'll go horse riding, I wore a black pant and I tucked in my black tube. Gusto kong magheels pero ako rin lang ang mahihirapan so I wore black boots.

Nang lumabas ako ay nakita ko siyang nakaayos na. He was wearing a simple white shirt, jeans, and brown boots. His hand was holding a black jacket.

"Good morning, let's go?" he kissed my forehead.

We decided not to eat breakfast. Pagkatapos kasi naming mag horse riding ay saka nalang kami kakain.

"Ready?" tanong niya habang inaalalayan akong sumakay sa kabayo.

Kinakabahan ako dahil baka bigla akong mahulog.

"Sakay ka na, bilis," pagmamadali ko dahil baka tumakbo na yung kabayo.

Humalkhak siya at sumakay din sa kabayo. He was behind me.

I was nervous at first when the horse started running. Pero kalaunan ay natanggal din naman. He looked hot even though I couldn't exactly see him.

Tumingin ako sa tube kong bahagyang bumababa dahilan para makita nang bahagya ang dibdib ko. Sumilip din siya at mahinang nagmura nang mapagtanto niya kung anong tinitignan ko.

Well, may mga tao kasi sa gilid.

Inangat niya ang tube ko at pinagpapatuloy ang pagpapatakbo sa kabayo. Pero wala ring silbi dahil bumababa rin ito.

Itinigil niya sandali ang kabayo. He looked so pissed staring at my chest. He took off his jacket and made me wore it. He fuy zipped it. Magrereklamo pa nga ako kasi ang init but he just glared at me so I shut up.

Umalis na kami nang matapos kaming mangabayo. Nakahawak ako sa braso niya habang papasok kami sa restaurant.

We ordered many foods and eated as many as we can.I was so happy when we went back home.

Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang ganitong pakiramdam.

We both took a shower after we got home. Nang matapos akong magbihis ay nagtungo ako sa sofa. I saw him sitting at the sofa. Tila may malalim siyang iniisip.

I walked towards him. I sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck. "Thank you.." I told him.

"For what?"

"For loving me.."

He smiled and gave a peck on my lips.

Silence enveloped us. As if silence was enough for us. Afraid of hearing our parents' shouts, we both found comfort in silence.

"Yohan," I called his name.

"Hmm?"

"Why don't you live with me?"

Ramdam ko kung pano siya nanigas sa kinauupuan niya.

"What the.." his lips parted.

"I know we're taking it fast but I just want you to live with me so it won't be a hassle for you. Alam mo naman, pabalik balik ka sa bahay mo tapos dito," I explained.

Nakatulala lang siya.

Then suddenly he cupped my cheeks and kissed me passionately.

"I love you.." he whispered between our kisses.