Ok so like.....Do y'all have that one really special person that comes into your life and suddenly you feel like you don't need anyone else but them? That's how I feel about my one and only big brother. He's literally my ONLY BIG BROTHER, and I feel like If I were to try to get another big brother, I'll feel bad bcs
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I'll feel like I'm replacing him and I'll feel like I don't need anyone else but him. I know it sounds crazy as fuck but I'm speaking from my heart right now
[12:28 AM]And I don't want to replace him. Ever. He's all I've got right along with all my other siblings. I feel as if I get another brother, I'll pay more attention to him than my first big brother and I don't want that. But then, our relationship is strong so I don't think I'll do that....but still.[12:34 AM]But then I do have this deep, troubling feeling in me that I'm slowly losing all of my siblings or important people around me. Like....like I'm on the edge of a cliff trying to pull all the people I care about, up..but then their hand slips from mine and they all fall and then I'm left alone and hurt bcs I let them all die/ slip away so easily...
Slip.
