Zchneider's Men Series #3: Leon-The Chick Magnate

Chapter 6

She cried and cried and cried. She cried until they got to her house.

Mang Nikolas was worried at her. Mabuti nalang at nabili na niya lahat ng kailangan nila nang madatnang umiiyak na naman ang dalaga. Hindi na nagtanong si Mang Nikolas kung ano ang nangyayari o kung ano ang problema ng dalaga.

The old man did not inquire because they were already aware. Her heart has been so broken that she can't stop crying. Mang Nikolas did not intervene. Danica's hot bathtub had already been prepared by Nana Maria, who was waiting for her.

Alam na alam na nila ang gagawin upang mapakalma ang dalaga palaging ganito ang nangyayari pagkatapos nilang manggaling sa Doktor. Danica was always crying.

Sabihin man nito sa sarili nitong siya ang pinaka-matapang na babae babalik pa din ito sa totoong nasa loob nito. She is weak. She is alone and she is lonely. She was hurt and she still is.

Ilang besesman niyang sabihin at isigaw sa sarili na matapang siya ay hindi pa din niya kaya. Sa huli, lumalabas pa din ang tunay na kahinaan niya. Nang makababa siya sa sasakyan ay agad siyang inalalayan ni Nana Maria.

"Sometimes, you really make me sick with worry about your child," Nana Maria said. Danica, who was listening, felt sorry for herself. Nana Maria from Mang Nikolas acknowledged her. They acknowledged her even when she was a child.

Kilalang-kilala nila siya dahil sila ang dalawang taong bukod sa kanyang kapatid na nakakakilala sa tunay niyang katapangan at kahinaan. This couple was her parents trusted workers back in Italy.

Sila ay mga buong Pilipino na nagtrabaho sa pamilya nila bilang Mayordoma at Butler ng kanilang pamilya. Nang mamatay ang kanyang Mama at Papa ay napagdesisyonan ng dalawa na mamuhay na sa Pilipinas matapos ang ilang taong paggabay sa kanila ng mga ito.

She let them borrow her beach house, which she bought when she was in her early teens, for their new home.

"I –I can't help it Nana, I felt so tired and my heart is aching more and more as another will," she replied. Mang Nikolas, who was listening, sighed and rubbed Danica's head.

Anak na nilang turing ang dalaga at ang kapatid nito dahil hindi sila kailanman nagkaroon ng mga anak.

"Child, when you're tired, learn to rest." You are not alone in this world; you have us, you have your baby, and if you let that person explain his words, maybe, just maybe, you also have him." Wika ng matanda kay Danica na natahimik lang nang biglang banggitin ang lalaking hindi niya ipinaalam ang pangalan.

Kitang-kita ang pagyuko ni Danica. She's hard-headed just like her brother. She won't do it not until she wanted it. Malalim na bumuntonghininga si Nana Maria upang hawakan ang baba ng kanyang alaga.

"Your lack of communication with him is the source of your pain. You are the one who is causing yourself harm." Pinagsasabihan ni Nana Maria ang kanyang alaga.

Alam na alam ng matanda kung ano ang sinasabi nito. The old woman knew Danica won't be angry at them. Alam niyang nakikinig si Danica sa kanila kahit pa sabihing hindi sila tunay na kadugo nito alam naman nilang pamilya ang turing sa kanila ng mga de Rossi.

"Danica, you wanted to take away the pain? Speak with him. Communicate with your loved ones. More importantly, speak with your child's father. Siya ang dapat na kinakausap mo, hanapan mo siya ng paliwanag, hanapan mo siya ng mga konkretong paliwanag at kung wala pa din then, it is the time you have to let go of those emotions in order for you to be healthy." Mang Nikolas has a bigger sense of advice.

Kaya nga tumanda silang magkasama ng kanyang asawa dahil kahit na wala silang anak. Mahal na mahal naman nila ang isa't-isa at hindi hinahayaang matapos ang araw ng hindi sila nagkakausap lalo pa at kung nag-aaway sila.

"The concrete foundation of love is trust and communication Dani, kung wala ka nito sa taong mahal mo ibig sabihin hindi mo siya talagang mahal. You just want him because you want to assure yourself that you are wanted. It is not love, it is selfishness." Natamaan ang dalaga sa sinabi ni Nana Maria.

She was ashamed of herself. Ngayon lang nagsalita ang mag-asawa tungkol sa relasyong nagpapasakit ng kalooban niya. Ngayon lang sila nagsalita dahil binigyan siya ng mga oras ng mga ito.

Habang inaalalayan siya ni Nana Maria paakyat ng kanyang silid ay unti-unting pumapasok sa isipan niya ang mga masasayang pangyayari sa kanila ni Leon. Nang magkabalikan sila ay ni minsan hindi siya binigyan ng sakit ng ulo nito maliban nalang talaga sa mga babaeng sila mismo ay lumalapit sa kanyang nobyo.

Leon never let her feel that she's one of them. Espesyal na espesyal ang turing sa kanya ni Leon na kahit na masagi lang siya ng mga babaeng lumalapit dito ay sisinghalan nito agad ang mga ito.

Danica gulped as she recalled those experiences. She gulped and realized she was to blame for what was going on in her life right now.

"Dani, loosen up and drain your worries in your bathtub with hot water, think about everything and let it sink in. Ikaw ang nagmamaneho ng buhay mo, huwag mong hayaang mabangga ito." Naiwang tinggagal si Danica sa loob ng kanyang silid habang nakabukas ang pintuan ng banyo at kitang-kita roon ang nakahandang bathtub.

She is, in fact, the driver of her own life. She'll ruin it if she crashes it. Isa-isang hinubad ni Danica ang mga damit at sinunod ang payo ni Nana Maria. She entered at the bathtub carefully.

As she sinks into the warm water, she realizes that everything that has happened to her is a result of her not trusting her man enough. Despite the fact that they had overcome many obstacles and problems, she did not have enough faith in their relationship.

She's too focused on herself and the things that have hurt her, but she had no idea how her love felt when she didn't trust him.

"What am I really doing to myself?" She muttered while her body was in the warm water. Ang tanga-tanga niya na basta na lamang iniwan si Leon nang hindi pinakikinggan ang mga paliwanag nito.

Ang tanga-tanga niya na agad na naniwala sa nakita niya. Ang tanga-tanga niya dahil sana ngayon ay ang lalaki ang nag-aalalaga sa kanya maging na rin ng dinadala niya. "I'm really an idiot," she whispered to herself.

Gustung-gusto ng buhay sa tiyan niya ang mainit na tubig kahit pa nasa loob pa niya lamang ito. She too likes it. Sinong hindi magugustuhan ito gayong lahat ng mga iniisip niya ay nalilinaw dahil sa kaginhawaang dala ng tubig.

Danica smiled after four months of thinking all her problems, siya din pala mismo makakaisip na mali siya. Hindi solusyon ang pagtakas sa mga problema. Hindi solusyon ang iwan na lamang basta ang problema na walang totoong paliwanag.

Danica can, and she will, clear her mind of these issues. She will be the one to clear it and care for it, not only for herself but also for the life growing within her womb...