Delicate

Chapter Thirty Two

Leo never believed in perfection. It was just an illusion in his opinion. What could seem perfect one day, could very well become what you despise the next. But he could never see himself despising Milan. Milan was nothing short of perfect in his eyes. And if that was an illusion, then he no longer cared.

Leo was falling for Milan, if he hadn't already. And for the first time in years, he wasn't afraid of opening his heart to someone. He could no longer see a future where Milan was not a part of his life.

The thought of losing Milan was terrifying. But if Milan was to hurt him in the end, even then each and every second spent with him would still make it all worth it.

Leo's thoughts were disturbed by the sound of footsteps. He was soon joined by Milan, who kissed his cheek and wrapped his arm around Leo. He was excited about spending the night together, and so was the other boy. He couldn't help but wonder what was in store for them.

Leo once again gave Milan the duty of stirring the pot, and Milan did it with utmost care and concentration. As if the sauce would disappear if he was to look away for even a moment. It didn't take long to cook this time, it was much simpler than what Leo had made for lunch. But the taste was delicious regardless of the time it took.

The two ate, and Milan made Leo promise that he was going to cook for him more often. Leo chuckled, but agreed, feeling glad that at least Milan liked something about him.

That train of thought caused a stinging feeling in his chest.

Whereas Milan was perfect, Leo couldn't help but wonder what he brought to the table. In his eyes, he was a failure. He was rude, and dumb, and ill-mannered. He was too careless, and never committed to anything. Why would Milan ever love him back?

"Everything okay?" Milan asked, looking concerned as he noticed how Leo's face fell out of the blue.

"Why are you with me?" Leo couldn't help but question. "You can do so much better."

"Hey," Milan frowned. This was the first time he was seeing Leo be so vulnerable in front of him. "How can you think like that? You're everything I could ask for in a boyfriend."

"But I have nothing to offer, there are guys so much smarter and better and-"

"Leo." Milan furrowed his brows, keeping his hands on Leo's cheeks to make the older boy look at him, as he spoke with all the sincerity in the world. "Ever since I met you...you've been like a guardian angel. You've taught me how to stand up for myself, taught me that what I want matters too. You're so goddamn kind and you're so much more talented than you give yourself credit for."

"Milan..."

"Even when I'm not with you, just the thought that you're mine is enough to brighten up my day. I would've missed out on so much and would've stayed in shell if it wasn't for you and your support." Milan paused to take a breath. "You're...you're the best thing in my life, Leo."

"I love you." Leo couldn't help but blurt out. Milan's eyes widened, as he looked taken aback. Leo was about to freak out, but before he could do that, Milan broke out in a huge grin.

"I love you." Milan leant forward to connect their lips. There was both a softness and a sense of desperation in their kiss as they held onto each other for dear life. Leo finally felt himself calm down as he pulled Milan closer to him than was humanly possible.

Leo hadn't said these words to anyone except Maya ever since his dad died. And saying them out loud, and actually meaning what he said, made his heart beat just a tad bit faster. He was no longer scared of it, but happy.

"I love you. I love you. I love you." Leo repeated over and over again. Milan smiled, and reconnected their lips.

The two stayed in the kitchen, making out passionately as they gripped each other's clothes, desperately wanting to take them off. Milan pulled back, giving Leo a look that wasn't too hard to decipher. Leo knew what it meant, and he nodded, feeling ready. Leo grabbed Milan's hand, as the two rushed upstairs to his room.

Their shirts came off almost instantly as Leo gently pushed Milan on the bed. His legs were dangling off, as Leo unbuttoned his pants and pulled them down. Milan helped speed up the process, before sitting up and untying the knot of Leo's sweatpants.

"Uh," Milan bit his lower lip nervously. "Are you sure about this?"

"Absolutely."

"Then this might kill the mood but, um, I need to use the restroom to, you know..." Milan trailed off, making Leo chuckle.

"Hurry up." Leo bent down to give Milan a peck. The other nodded as he got up and rushed to the bathroom.

Once Milan was gone behind the door, Leo fell onto the bed and stared up at the ceiling. His heart was still beating out of his chest, and he couldn't wait to finally show Milan just how much he loved him.

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chapter 37 is up on patreon and buymeacoffee! links in bio.

on that note, delicate will have around 40-42 chapters in total, so it's coming to an end ;-;