Oneirataxia

You're My Happiness | short story [eng]

[tw!] harsh words // pic illustration from pinterest ᰔᩚ
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"Get out of my way," she demanded.

Deep sigh, his looks softened at her. "No, I'm staying," he said.

She bit her lips, while trying so hard not to cry. "Please, just let me go," she whispered desperately.

He walked closer to her, both hands reached out her shoulders and squeezed them slowly yet soft. She avoided to look at him, had no guts to face him this close. She stared at her shoes instead. She stayed quiet, already crying in silence. "I want you to look me in the eyes, my darling." His voice as calm as mother's lullabies.

"How many times do I have to tell you? I'm not good enough for you, such a bad influence. You won't be happy with me, I can't even make myself happy either. I'm just a mess–" she paused, then dared to look at him right in the eyes. She continued, "–you knew what I've done all these years. All I do is just harming myself. I-I am afraid that I could hurt you. My whole life is just a horrible disaster. The thoughts, the thoughts that surround my mind are so fucking loud. You won't like it, you won't be comfortable around me, you will hate me. Nobody wants me, not a single person. I can see through their eyes, they all are hating me. I will just be a burden to you like I always been. So please, I want you to find someone else. Find your happiness," she whined and was shaking unable to control her emotions.

He held her arms tightly but not so tight that could hurt her and remarked, "I already found my happiness." A wide sweet smile can be seen on his calm face. "It's you, my love. It's always you. You're my happiness."

She shaked her head then sobbed. He pulled her into a hug, a tender hug. She cried all over his chest, causing his shirt to wet from her tears.

"Hey, it's okay. You're not alone. I'm here. You can get through this, we will fight this together, you and I. Don't be afraid, everything's gonna be fine. I promise," he affirmed while rubbing his palm on her back so gently.

"I love you."

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