Torn in Two (Elite Girls 2)

Chapter 44 - Anger

"Sige, sa labas na lang tayo. Baka gising pa si Ate, marinig niya tayo. Mauna ka na doon, I'll bring you something to drink. Do you want coffee?"

"Sure." Tumalikod na siya at naglakad papunta sa back door. I stared at him before I sighed and went to the kitchen.

Habang nagpapainit ng tubig ay hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko sa pag-ngiti.

I'm so happy Dashiell's here. Ready na siyang makipagusap at makasama ulit ako. I knew it. I just have to give him some time.

*buzz*

I got distracted when my phone vibrated. Agad kong tiningnan kung sino ang nag-text.

From: Damian

11:16 pm

Everything okay? Nagaalala ako na baka magaway ulit kayo.

I'm still here, outside.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad akong lumabas ng bahay. Napailing ako nang makita ko ang kotse niya. I immediately walked towards the side of his car.

"Go home, Damian."

"Is he angry at you?"

"You can't do this. Mas lalo lang magdududa sa'tin si Dash. Please, umuwi ka na."

"I'm just scared he might hurt you---"

"Just stop it already! Tama na!" sigaw ko. "You shouldn't be worrying about me! You shouldn't be waiting here! Leave, Damian! Sinabi ko na sa'yo, kalimutan mo na 'ko!"

And with that, I walked away and went back to the kitchen. Kumuha ako ng malamig na tubig at uminom diretso mula sa pitsel. I needed to calm myself because I'm in the brink of breaking down.

I don't want to hurt Damian but I must do it. And that freaking sucks.

Hindi ko alam kung anong kasalanan ang nagawa ko noon para mapunta sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Nang mawala na ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko ay ginawa ko na ang kape namin ni Dash pagkatapos ay pinuntahan ko na siya. I placed it on the table and sat beside him.

"What took you so long?" tanong niya.

"I couldn't find where the coffee was," I almost whispered.

Another lie.

Uminom lang siya at hindi umimik.

"I'm glad you're here," pagbabago ko ng topic.

Bumalik ang kaba ko nang tinitigan lang ako ni Dash. Nakasandal lang siya sa upuan niya habang nakatingin sa akin.

"Iris, I'm ready."

I blinked a couple of times. "For what?"

"I'm ready to hear your reasons. I'm willing to listen but you have to promise me you'll be honest with me otherwise, we can't do this anymore."

"I'll tell you everything. I promise."

Tumango siya at hinintay na ako magpaliwanag. Bigla namang umurong ang dila ko sa takot.

I don't know what may happen after our conversation and that scares me a lot.

Huminga ako ng malalim at uminom muna ng kape bago ako nagsimulang magkwento. I was struggling at first. Nauutal ako at hindi ako makatingin sa mga mata niya pero alam kong kailangan kong sabihin lahat ng mga ito. Lahat mula nang unang pagkikita namin ni Damian hanggang sa magkalayo kami. I told Dash how I desperately tried to looked for his brother and how I ended up pretending to not know who Damian is.