My Secret Love❤😚 (Completed)

Part 13

Next morning, Sushmita entered the Gill house, She saw Rashmi and her mother sitting in small drawing room, sipping their morning drinks. 

"Hello Aunty, I'm sharon, Shehnaaz's friend." Sushmita introduced herself, Rashmi already knows her.

"Hello Sushmita. Shehnaaz is not home but if You are here for any work, you can tell me?" Mrs Gill told her in sweet tone, She had always been like this sweet mother infront of others but there is a whole different story behind the closed doors of house.

"Actually aunty, Shehnaaz is coming with my family for a trip so I came here to take her stuff." Sushmita told her politely. Mrs Gill was shocked hearing it first then put up the smiley face thinking now they don't have to take her Goa where she & Rashmi are going for new year. 

"Oh. She is going with you? She didn't told me but thats okay, her room is there you can take her stuff." She replied to her, smiling over sweetly at her that Sushmita had hard time in controlling her urge to roll her eyes, she knew shehnaaz's mother real color.

"Thank you, Aunty." Sushmita walked toward her room, she had been in her house 2-3 times but every time when her mother or sister was not in house, Shehnaaz was told by her mother  strictly  not to bring any friend here in house. 

Sushmita went in her room and quickly packed her stuff. Last night Sidharth called her and told her to bring her stuff from her home, he had lied to her that they are going out for vacation so Sushmita doesn't worry about Shehnaaz.

After packing her stuff she came out of the house, at some distance from her house, Sidharth's driver was standing with his car. Sushmita handed over shehnaaz's luggage to driver and drove away from their in her own car. Her work was done. 

Sidharth stare at her with worry filled eyes, It was time she would wake up any moment. And he had no idea how she would react knowing the news they had lost their baby..their first baby. 

"Shehnaaz" Sidharth whispered as he saw her stir in her sleep, unconsciously she gripped his hand tightly. Her eyes fluttered, trying to adjust with the room lights. Shehnaaz had an unedurable head ache, her head was spinning. She whimpered and tighten her grip on his hand.

"Sidharth" Her voice croaked, Sid was by her side, holding her gently he made her sit on bed then handed her a glass of water. Sid made her drink the water then placed the glass back on table. 

"Sidharth what happened to me?" Shehnaaz questioned him once she got her voice stable. Sidharth avoid looking at her, not knowing how to break this news to her. 

"Shehnaaz, How are you feeling now?" Sidharth asked her gently, sitting beside her on bed. Sidharth caressed her head. She gave him small smile. 

"Little pain in abdomen" Shehnaaz told him in low tone, Sidharth nodded as he gently ran  his hand over her belly. Just a day before his child was there, breathing inside her womb but now his baby is no more. What could be more painful for a father that he lost his child before he could even come to know about it. And Shehnaaz, if this news had broke him then what will it do to her. Shehnaaz was the one who was carrying their baby. She will be devastated but he will be there by her side. 

"Sidharth who brought me here? And what had happened to me?" Shehnaaz questioned him which brought him back in to reality. 

"Last night, I found you unconscious on road, I brought you here." Sidharth told her, Shehnaaz nodded in return. Just then she was about to ask him something doctor walked inside the room she was in. 

"How are you feeling now, Shehnaaz?" Sonia, her doctor asked her. 

"Better" Shehnaaz mumbled, Doc smiled at her and  checked her temperature and pulse rate. Her temperature was normal. She told the same to Sidharth, He took a sign of relief hearing she is better.
"Sonia when I can take her home?" 

"You can take her home. I'll get the discharge papers ready" Sonia told him, she left the room. Shehnaaz turned toward him.

"Now tell me, what happened to me?" Shehnaaz asked him. Sidharth sighed knowing he had to tell her.

"You had a miscarriage. You were 3 weeks pregnant" Sidharth told her with heavy heart. He look at her, her eyes were glued on him. She looked numb as is there is no life left in her. His words sink in, she took her hands back from him. 

"What? No..you are lying. I wasn't pregnant. i couldn't lose my child" Shehnaaz cried loudly, Sid pulled her in his embrace. Her heart was thumping loudly, hoping whatever he had told her was anything but truth but she couldn't denied it too. She too had noticed symptoms of pregnancy few days back but shrugged it off thinking she might be over thinking. They never done it without protection. 

"You were kitty, We lost our child" Sidharth whispered to her, she hold onto him tightly and cried..cried till her throat felt sore. Its all her fault if she done test before then her baby would have survived but no..her baby died. Her baby died and she couldn't do anything about it.

"How?" Her voiced croaked, completely broken from inside out. Shehnaaz was in pain physically and emotionally, her heart was bleeding. Unconsciously her hand went to her abdomen, she clutched her stomach.

"Your womb wasn't strong enough to carry a baby and you had fever too because of staying in rain" Sidharth told her, he put his hand over her which was on her belly. He nuzzled his face in crook of her neck, a lone tear escaped from his eye. 

"It was my fault" Shehnaaz mumbled over n over again. She tightly hold onto him, crying her heart out.

"No Shehnaaz, It was not your fault. It was not your fault, Kitty" Sidharth whispered in her ear. It was not her fault their baby is not with them, it was not in hands. Sid kissed her forehead and hugged her tightly, hoping his words could take away her pain. 
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"Mom, I'd heard that Sidharth Sir is not well, thats why he didn't come office today." Rashmi told her mother over the phone from office, few people in office were talking about it and she overheard their talks. 

"Thats great sweety. Okay listen, after office go to his home to visit him. Dress up seductively and take flowers with you." Mrs Gill told her from other side of phone. 

"Superb Idea mom. Now he has to pay attention to me." Rashmi replied, grinning ear to ear hearing her mother's plan. Mrs Gill gave her some more tips to seduce him and cuts the call.

"Wait for me Mr. Shukla, here I come to get you." Rashmi thought to herself, a seductive smile playing on her lips.
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" I'll go and bring something for you to eat." Sidharth told her, tried to break the hug but she tighten her hold around him. They were sitting on hospital bed, in each others arms.

"No. Please don't go" Shehnaaz whimpered, she just wanted to stay in his arms. They were providing her comfort which she needed the most.

"But taani you need to eat." Sidharth tried to argue.

"I'm not hungry. Please just stay here. With me"she pleaded, hiding her face in his chest. Shehnaaz was silently weeping.  It pained him watching her so broken. He just sat there and hugged her even more tightly. 

They stayed in each others arms, for how long they both dont know. They broke the hug when nurse entered the room and cleared her throat to get their attention.  Shehnaaz wiped her tears with back of her hand but they seems to be unstoppable. 

"Sir, Please sign these discharge papers" Nurse told him, Sidharth nodded and got up from bed and walked toward her, he was standing near the door of the room, his back was facing her. Shehnaaz was staring at his back, her mind was blank. 

She had lost her child. And its her fault.

Those words were ringing in her mind, Shehnaaz glances at the scissor kept in tray on table beside her bed, Shehnaaz lifted up the scissor and stare at it. She felt numb with pain, her mind had stopped working. She lost her child before she could even come to know about its existence and it all happened because of her. 

It was her fault that her body is not strong enough to keep her baby protected, She couldn't even protect her own child. She lost her baby..she lost her baby all because of her own carelessness.  Her vision got blur as tears filled her eyes. With shaky hands she brought the scissor close to her wrist and closed her eyes.