I FEEL like i chase pain,
i feel like i my brain is numb from all the thinking i try to do each day,
and i feel like a jaw of jealousy is biting at my arm trying to remind me to do my worship of envy to keep me sane.I THINK of her at night when my shadow taunts me of my past melodies,
i think my thoughts are too loud and they drown in my gut,
and i think i don't know where to go from here and i'm scared.THEY SAY to do better but i still haven't learned how,
they say to try more but it's all i do,
and they say i'm being dramatic and maybe i am but i can't help it.I DO (not) believe things are going to get better soon. soon is written on my mirror in blood, it's what i hear in my dreams that feels a little too real.
i do sink lines into my skin until it bruises into a purple,
and i do not know how to talk about these things so they burn in the fire of what i feel, think, say, and do.
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choking insanity
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