choking insanity

i have emotional motion sickness

i have emotional motion sickness,
          it starts from the back of my throat,
    (i can feel it, and it burns)
it scratches and scars over the lies that are smeared in vermilion ink, it makes my mind dazed.
    (it makes me speak without thought)

and i have emotional motion sickness,
            blood brims into my eyes,
      (i can't see, i only observe in red.)
it trickles down my cheeks,
     my tears are dipped in sorrowful shame.
      (my past makes me weep)

i have emotional motion sickness,
          and it makes my body shake,
       (it shuts off as the insanity seeps in)
i fall onto the tile that is my mind,
           my weedy bones feel like
blisters are stabbed onto the ivory cage.
     sticks, my sticks are chattering
as blood flows out of my blue lips.
    it spills, pours out in heeps
and it stains the dirty tile,
       writing the words
help!
        in circles because i know the words
won't scream out of my mouth like they should.

i have emotional motion sickness,
         someone roll the windows down,
and i have emotional motion sickness,
         someone please (don't) help.

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at this point all my poems are based off of songs LMAO anyways this is inspired by the song motion sickness by our queen phoebe bridgers!!