choking insanity

for you

i would do anything for you,
and you wouldn't do the same for me but that doesn't seem to matter (right now) because i deserve that.
    i'm getting too comfortable in my skin again, and you wouldn't like that so i try to push down the laughter my friends bring and let you shove it further down my throat. your hands seem to be throttling my neck a little more lately, and i take that as a sign to make myself feel small again.

   i want you to love me again
and i would do anything for you,
so i make sure your fingers leave prints (just like you like it) on my throat as you continue to choke me further into insanity,
   until you think i am worthy for love.
i'll be quiet for you and i'll make room here for you. i'll back myself into the corner and sit and stare until you tell me it's okay to come out because
it's really for the best.

i'll ask how you are,
     and you won't ask me,
but that's okay because i do this for you,
and i'll ignore the constant sting that comes from being with you.

     this is really for the best.

i keep telling myself it's for the best
because it's for you

and i think i would do anything for you.

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hi it's been forever i'm so sorry for not updating, also i'm sorry this is so rushed and definitely has mistakes lmao i just wrote this bc i have been listening to this song called for you by Delaney Bailey and obviously i just had to write a poem about it (lines in italics are lyrics from the song like always) ily you guys <3