I dont remember the day
The day I started saying
"When i kill myself"
Instead of "if"
The day I first chose to starve
The day I picked up a blade
And learned to dismantle a sharpener
The first day I wore a hoodie in 30⁰C
The first time i begged to die
And messaged my friends "I love you"
Only to delete them the next day
The day cutting was my first choice
The day I stopped wanting to be here
And the day I first felt truly alone
The day i started giving up
The day I started to be groomed
And gave in to "please i wont share it"
For him to later call me fat and ugly
The day I first made myself sick
The day I started to memories calories
Or cried in a restaurant bathroom
The day my hair started to thin
The day my body felt cold in summer
And I couldnt look at myself at all
Having coffee and a cig for dinner
The day the bullying started
The day sleeping was all I could do
Because I was too exhausted for life
The day I changed forever
YOU ARE READING
poems by me
PoetryJust a bit of poetry I've written over a few years so dont judge it too harshly. Plus it does get better as you go on (in my opinion). PLEASE LOOK AT THIS BEFORE READING!!!! If you know me in real life and choose to read this please dont show people...
