Miami's POV
Christmas Break
A/N I'm ready to finish this book but don't be sad ! I'm starting up a new one. But I'm finishing this book with a big... BANG. So enjoy this chapter :)
I woke up around 5 am & looked around. Idk what woke me up but I couldn't seem to sleep. Yeah it was Christmas & all but that wasn't the reason I woke up.
I got up & walked to my balcony & layed out there on my comfy chair. I watched as the city lights gleamed under the stars. It wasn't much to see up here, but it was enough.
It was crazy. Everybody filling out college applications, getting ready to graduate, getting scholarships. All that good stuff. I so far have 4 scholarships from Florida, California, Wisconsin & New York.
Of course I'm picking the California one. I can't move away. Not w| all this going on. Terry is out soon. Momma is almost done with treatment. Kayla 7 months pregnant. Cali & Summer getting older & older each day. I couldn't leave this behind.
I let the cool air hit my face & chill me a little. I never would think I'd be up here, 5 o'clock Christmas morning thinking about... Everything. I sighed & of course my mind shifted to tray.
Tray.. The one I was scared to let in my heart again. The one I told to just wait a while for me to recover. The one who went and got another girlfriend 2 weeks later. The one who doesn't even look at me.. Ever. Its heartbreaking isnt it ?
When u think someone really loves you, & is Down for w.e can't even wait around for the person they "love". Ha funny. These last couple months I have been... Pretty chill. Almost boring. Simply because, I am a little heartbroken.
Every time I see her walk into MY house, every time I see her at MY dinner table , Every time I see them on MY porch. Every time I see them at the beach, movies, ice cream shops, amusement parks. Yeah, every time I saw that my heart broke a little more.
I didn't even notice the tear slide down my face until the air blew again. I quickly wiped it away. I hadn't cried since the day of my birthday. Which was a couple weeks ago. So , I wasnt going to cry now.
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I woke up the next morning around 12. Late as ever. But idc, I been running on my own schedule lately. I get up & do my hygiene , then pick out something just to go down stairs. I decided on a crop top & sweats w| my blue footies.
I opened my door & headed down stairs not in the best of moods. I heard everyone in the living room so I headed in there. I dreaded having to but I didn't want to be rude. I walked in & all eyes were on me.
"Hi" I said waving & sat on the couch. Everyone was just sitting around : Khalil, Tray, His gf tyla, Cali, summer, De'Asia, Myra, trays mom & I guess some of Tylas Friends. Or siblings. A boy who looked around my age & 2 girls around 15 & 12.
"Smile Miami! Its Christmas!" Myra said smiling at me. I kept looking at her giving her the kanye stare. De'Asia hopped up & walked over to me. She tried to make me smile but it didn't work.
I wasn't unhappy on purpose. Simply because I'm on my period, my stomach hurts, also my HEART. I shouldn't let that keep me unhappy but , after being heartbroken TWO times how couldn't you?
