His Nari: A Boys Over Flowers FF

Chapter 4

It all started with her taking a shower after coming back home. She just wanted to unwind and let go of everything negative from the day. But as always, her mind spiraled out of control soon enough and here she was, cursing at everything in life and drowning herself in her own misery. Nari had these days where she would not be able to control her thoughts and it would eventually lead to her having a breakdown, with no one usually around to help her out. 

Kang Nari had no source of comfort. That much was obvious from the very fact that she had no stuffed toys in her room. Her room felt polished, expensive but it definitely didn't feel like a place that would comfort her. She liked to use her room as a means to escape from the world, not a place she can seek solace in. 

Nari forcefully held back her sobs as she heard a knock on her door. 

"Ms. Nari, it is time for dinner." Butler Kim announced from the other side of the door. Nari was in no condition to respond. Her throat felt heavy due to crying and her nose congested. She was sure her face was red and her eyes puffy. She knew she looked as terrible as she felt. 

Despite hearing no response from the miss inside, Butler Kim knew she heard him. He knew she would come downstairs too. Miss was not someone to purposefully ignore the servants or to be willful. If she didn't respond, it was either because Miss was busy, or she was upset. Kang Nari, too, knew that despite hearing no response, Butler Kim understood. He always did. Nari supposed he was the closest thing she had to a family. 

Nari begrudgingly got out of the bed and went towards the bathroom to wash her face in an attempt to reduce the puffiness. She started splashing cold water on her face.

She hated dinner time. She dreaded the time when Butler Kim would come upstairs to call her for dinner. She despised it. 

Because she knew. She knew that she would be down there eating her dinner alone. Her dinner was made by some of the finest chefs and served in expensive crockery and was presented in a way suited for a king, yet it never satisfied Nari. She would eat her fill and it wouldn't make her content or happy. She would sit at the long dining table alone and eat as the sound of her utensils would be the only sound, she heard throughout the entire ordeal. 

Feeling satisfied with her face, Nari wiped her face dry with a towel. Taking a look at herself in the mirror once again, she left her room. 

Kang Nari glided down the upper halls of the house, her long cotton long-sleeved night gown hovering on her frame. Her hair was clipped up, keeping her face in clear sight. She probably looked like a ghost from a horror movie, yet she felt like a person going through a haunted house. The house was eerily quiet on the upper floor. 

Kang Nari noticed the servants pause and line up as she reached the stairs and started climbing down. Her puffed eyes did not go unnoticed by them as she neared the end of the stairs. Butler Kim politely bowed down as he led her to the dining room and pulled out a chair for her. 

The food had already been served and it even smelled great, yet it couldn't do anything to wake Kang Nari's appetite. The sound of the utensils echoed throughout the dining room as Nari started eating. 

As always, Nari felt lonely. Oh, how she wished to have the chatter of the family around her. 

Nari remembered she once invited the servants to eat with her when she was younger. This act of hers had been reported to her father's wife, Nari's stepmother and Nari had been badly reprimanded by her. 

"What else can we expect from you? You are a daughter of a maid after all. After all, you can't turn a raven into phoenix." Those were the words Nari remembered the most from that day. From that day, Nari had been warned by her step-mother to not repeat the mistake again.