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CHAPTER 14. PART 1

  Even Tony was destined for great things.

He could have been a helping save lives as a doctor. But now Hes killing lives.

 

   Everyone could have been something great at one point, maybe even myself if I tried hard enough in college. I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. All I knew was I wanted to do something where nobody knows who I am.

Where nobody cares where I'm from or who. I could have been a normal kid, whose dad would walk to the park to play soccer. The chance to go over to my grandparents, my grandpa would invite me outside to play football.

  Sometimes when I pass by kids having those experiences, I'm glad.  I'm glad no-one has to go through a shit childhood and shit life.

  Even though I hate roman with all my soul, Hes a good dad. Roman didn't give up after Adele supposably died. He went through hell to get his girls back from Rickys clutch, we all did. It was a reminder of all our foolishness and is a living example of what consequences are.

  Erika and Anya remind me so much of Adele, her spirited personality. The girls are only 5 years old, and every time I see them, my heart aches. How is it someone so fucking perfect and someone so fucking stupid could create those angels.

It doesn't add up.

I drive up to the front of the school, it's still.

"I'll be right back." Roman says quietly.

I lean back in seat while he begins to exit. If it where up to me I'd drive away and leave roman here. But I wouldn't want to do that to Erika and Anya being all alone and abandoned with Roman.

I'd kill myself if I was stuck with him till I'm 18.

Lucky roman isn't my daddy.

"Oh shit!" Robert yells, "what?" I say arrogantly because I know it's with this chick he's texting.

"Should I invite her? I should right. She's a sexy bodyguard." He whines.

I give Robert the fucking stare, he's so fucking stupid I swear to god. I breathe in air, and exhale.

"Are you out your fucking mind,"I speak gently not trying to wake Derek and Dominic.

"Of course."

"Do you want her to end up like Adele."

"No-"

"She will if you bring her, and it will play out exactly the same." I say, and I see the redness in his face.

"You really think I'd do that." I used to trust each of guys with my soul and heart. But Roman had to shoot a bullet through it. And I don't know so much anymore.

"Anybody is capable of anything." Which hits closer to home when I say it.

"Anybody is capable of anything huh?" Tony says from the back. I quickly glance and see Derek and Dominic are awake. Fuck, Dominic gives me a small glance and looks away.

"I mean look at Roman, he was fucking great wasn't he?" Everybody stays quiet which proves my point even more.

I rest my head against the window, the silence is louder than noise. But the radio gives me something to concentrate on.

"We all saw the Industry Awards yesterday right?" The lady on the radio says, "Of course, I hope I wasn't the only one who noticed the tension between Felix Ray and Josephine." I rise my head from its position.

I forgot all about Josephine.

I pull out my phone and find her contact. I smile from looking at the picture on her profile. It's her sleeping after we had sex for the first time. She looks so peaceful and at rest.

I begin typing

Hey baby.

I turn off my phone, she probably won't respond now. 

But as soon as I turn look away I hear the notification from my cell. Quickly I grab open it back up, I read her message.

I've been waiting for you to come over like you said.

Fuck I forgot about that.

Sorry baby, something came up.  I reply.

It's okay, I wanna show you something can you call?

I look around the car and the guys are doing their own thing while we wait. I don't want them to hear me talking to Josephine, "I'll be right back." I tell the guys. None of them reply but Derek nods his head.

I unbuckle my seatbelt and open the door.

I shut the floor once I'm outside, the rain pours heavily against me. I begin walking away from the car to get some privacy.

Meanwhile I pull out my cell and start to Dial her number. The ringing continues on, I see myself in the portrait of me. My hair dangles in my face, I'm pale as shit.

Josephine comes into view, her golden brown skin comes into view along with her think hair in a messy bun. I like seeing her exactly this way, it make me feel more usually normal.

"You look beautiful." Beautiful isn't even enough compared to her. A smile curves up her lips, she looks down then back at the screen.

"Where are you?"

"Outside talking to you." She nods but I could tell it's not the answer she wanted.

"What did you want to show me." I ask changing the subject, I see her bite her bottom lip from the inside. "Could you come over?"

I glance around, fuck.

"Sorry baby I'm going out of town for a couple days or weeks." I see her eyes water up, "What's wrong are you okay?"

"Felix, I want to tell you in person." Her voice is quiet but demanding. I start tapping my leg against the rain piling underneath my shoe.

"Josie it's gonna have to be now."

"Okay," She whispers.

She glances down then back at me. "I'm pregnant."

"I-" my voice is closed out. I stare at the screen in shock, seeing if there's any indication she's lying. I hope she's is. As much as I would love to have a mini Felix running around, I'm not ready.

Cause I know for sure killing Adele won't be easy for me, I know that for sure. And with Ricky and my father, shit.

On the other hand, this is a responsibility.

I cant be doing stupid shit anymore, I know how much it would hurt Josephine if I slacked of raising our child.

"Felix- speak to me." I hear her, tears fill her eyes. Now more than even I want to run away from my other responsibilities and kneel down to Josephine and our child.

I run my hand through my hair and suck in a breathe. "I-u how long have you known." I say horeasely .

"I took the test today when I was feeling nauseous, I knew if wasn't Arnold because your the only person I'd-" she whisper the last bit to herself.

"I know baby."

"Felix come on!" My neck automatically turns and I see tony yelling at me through the window.

"I gotta go, I'll see you soon I promise." I give her my final goodbye until I'll be able to talk to her once again.

"Okay be safe," she says before I end the call.

Fucking shit.

Nothing I do will be safe for a while.

I walk back to the car and enter the drivers seat. I turn my head around and Erika and Anya sit where Derek and Dominic sat before.

"Hi Uncle Felix."