DUPLICATE

CHAPTER 14. PART 1

FELIX RAY

-PRESENT-

I stare out the window looking at the fog drift through. I feel one of the boy's glaze on my back. I'd prefer them if they left me alone, Especially Roman.

   I lay cold on a bed, it's warm and soft. The covers are thick but the material softens around my skin and eases me. But once in a while, when the morphine begins to cool off the once soft lining pains me when it touches the surface of my skin which is carved in cuts.

I don't feel sorry, or guilty for what I did. I do realize I should have been dead, and it's a miracle that I'm alive. But I was supposed to die.

I squeeze my eyes shut. I shouldt be here.

Nothing is right.

"Felix..." A smooth comforting voice interrupts, Dominic.

I stay put with my eyes closed and hands under my head. I feel his presence behind me staring down upon me. I'm not sure if he knows I'm awake or not, but I rather it stays that way.

"I'm so sorry." He whispers, even at this moment his voice is delicate. "I know how it feels to love someone and have to keep it buried inside. I love someone, and I'm scared." I try to ease his words out by clutching my hands but the cuts inflicted bring a sharp pain.

  Dominic's voice quiets down. "I'm scared because I'm afraid I'll lose them like you did. And if I do, I don't think I'll be able to live if my purpose is gone and if my hope is too." These words are more for him than to me but I find myself connecting with them. "But Felix, you have a big heart. And your life is something nobody should ever experience and if I had the chance to take it all away from you I would. But I don't have the guts to kill you and any of your friends either"

"So dont fucking die." My eyes blink open. I turn my head to face Domonic. His face is red and the soft curls on his hair fall down over his eyes. He stares down at the ground. "She's not mine to love." His head quickly props up and I see the wetness of his face covered in tears and how red his eyes look. "He's not mine to love."

Dominic loves them, Dominic loves him. I seem to understand, I give a slight smile as I give in. I can't let Domonic suffer the loss of his loved one like I am. I have to be the one to do it, it's me that has to kill adele. Not Roman.

Everything starts to make sense.

  "Dominic, you won't lose him, I promise on my soul." His face stays but I see the glory and relief in his eyes. Dominic gets up and walks towards me. In his hands is a photograph of a license plate.

I grab the photo and stare at the combination.

Y97T13Q

"We need to leave now if we want to get ahead after all the time we lost." I say.

He nods and begins to leave the room, before he exits his hand grips the frame of the door. "I'll let the others know."

"Mhmm."

I begin to unhook the wires connected to me and throw them out the way as I begin to get up. My feet touch the carpet floor, I feel my eyes blur into a darkness from standing up too quickly and my body feels heavy. I'm trying so hard not to faint onto the floor but my word means more.

Dominic doesn't deserve to lose someone, most of all I do.

I don't believe in God, but if I need to pay for my sins then this is my chance.

I force myself to walk towards the small chair in the corner of the room. Fresh clothes are laid out. Black jeans and a black hoodie to go along. I carefully grab the pair of jeans. My hand aches at the clench, my breath shudders as I start placing one leg into the pant leg then the second.