Almost Perfect (COMPLETED)

chapter thirty-eight

["H-hello? Nandyan ka pa ba, Aubrielle?"]

Binaba ko ang tawag ng hindi namalayan. I feel like my world has been ruined without noticing. I found my self crying again breathless.

She was the person who always been there. She was the person who always been said that I can lean on her shoulder pero ano na ngayon... Sino na ngayon masasandalan ko kung mga tao na inaasahan ko na lagi lang sa tabi ko naalis agad sa buhay ko.

I cursed myself under my breath many times that I couldn't count. Para'ng lagi nalang pag gusto ko maging masaya, hindi nagtatagal gagantihan kaagad ako ng mapait na kalungkutan na para'ng gusto mo nalang bumalik sa mga panahong kung saan hindi ka nagdudusa sa kalungkutan.

"My god. What do I now?" I mumbled on myself. I felt my hand shaking while trying to my endlessly tears.

"Aubrie anak—" my mom paused when she saw me shaking from crying. Inangat ko ang tingin ko sa kanya at simula umiyak ng tudo ulit. Shee immediately approached me and wrapped me in her arms, I cried more as far as I know on her chest.

"What's wrong sweetie? What's wrong?" She asked while carresing my back.

"M-ma..." I tried to stop my self from crying but my knee ended being weak. She hug me again and kissed the top of my head.

"Mama! Tumawag si Auntie," Aurie entered the room. Halatang nagmadali siya'ng pumunta dito.

Agad tumayo si mama at lumapit kay Aurie. Aurie handed her phone to ma and this time she was the one who's hugging me. She's also crying right now.

"It's okay Aubrielle," kumalas siya sa pagyakap at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. "I'm here. We're here, we love you," she hugged me again.

"B-but... She's gone. Gran is gone."

"Aubrielle..." We both cried on my room.

***

"Anak."

Lumingon ako kay mama nung hinaplos niya ang kamay ko. She looked at me with a smile. Alam ko naman na hindi din siya okay sa nangayari pero bakit kailangan pa nila mag panggap na okay para lang i-comfort ako.

"Po?" I replied.

"Sabihan mo lang ako mamaya kung..." She trailed off. I just forced a smile. "Seriously Aubrielle. I know you're the most affected person on our family right now," she pressed my hand, "I just want you to know that you can leaned on us too."

"Alam ko po yun. Pero talaga'ng kaya ko na po sarili ko," I said.

"Talaga'ng mahal mo talaga yung lola mo 'no?"

"She's the only person who was there when I feel so lonely in the spotlight," wala'ng kamalaymalay ko'ng sagot. Agad naman ako napalingon ako kay Mama. "I-I mean I don't mean an—"

She kissed my forehead. "I understand and sorry for giving you hard time on that moment," she said. "For sure she's happy for what you've achieve."

***

"Buti naman nakarating kayo," Auntie greeted us when we approached her. Bumaling ang tingin niya sa'kin at ngumiti ng malungkot. "Aubrielle," she carresed the side of my head before she escorted inside the house.

There's few people I see that seem also affected, people who adore Gran for being such a good person to everyone. There's some people na nakikita ko na nandito lang para sa pagkain.

Lumapit ako sa kabaong ni Gran ng dahan dahan. I saw her...

I saw her sleeping peacefully.

"I'm okay," sabi ko kila mama at pilit na ngumiti. I wipe my tears and told them I had to make call to excuse myself.

My feet bring me to the backyard of the house. I sat there peacefully. And again I was forcing myself to not to cry.

I was interrupted when someone sat beside me. That person was just remained silent. Dahil nakaupo siya sa tabi ko hindi ko maiwasan na maamoy ang pabango niya. Dahan dahan ko inangat ang tingin ko sa kanya at dun ko nakita yung mukha niya na tahimik lang nakatingin sa harap. Nung napansin niya na tumingin ako sa kanya tumingin din siya sa'kin sabay abot ng panyo.

"Salamat," I thanked that person sabay tanggap ng panyo.

"Okay ka na?"

"Thanks Lia," I smiled to her. She just carresed my back. "Kanina ka pa ba nakarating dito?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

"I was about to call my brother but then I saw you here," she replied. "Iyak mo lang yan. I'll be here, okay?"

"Okay," I laugh as I hugged her and she  hug me back without hesitation. We stayed like that for a minute before she asked me if I was tired. Dumiretso na kami kaagad sa kwarto ko para magpahinga sa byahe.

It was around 7PM when I woke up. Lia said that she needed my help kasi may mga bisita na daw na dumadalaw.

"Hand this to your mom. Mukhang hindi siya nakakatulog this past few days," Lia handed me a cup of coffee. Tumango nalang ako at sinunod ang sinabi ni Lia. Nung malapit na ako sa bibigyan ko ng coffe may dumaan sa harap ko kaya I ended up plashing the coffe on that person cloth.

"Oh shoot, I'm so sorry—"

"It's fine. Are you okay?" He reached his hand while looking straight on my eyes. His eyes widened a bit but that expression instantly change into smirk

I pursed my lips. "I-I'm okay," I cleared my throat and about to pick up the brokem pieces of cup when he grabbed my hand and he insisted to do it.

He stop from what he's doing but his sight was jusy looking at the floor "You might get hurt," he said and stood up.

Para'ng nag flashback yung dati kung saan kami nagsimula. Kung paano niya ako binago at paano ko siya inawan noon. He was standing in front of me, staring to me as like he was sad to see me but happy at the same time.

"Sorry, please excuse me," he said and left me there. Sinundan ko siya gamit ang tingin ko hanggang mawala siya paningin ko.

What the hell?